alexfenner
26-07-10, 03:23
Hi guys and girls.
My names alex and I'm 22 years old and live in Kent, UK.
Glad I've found this site and hopefully get some good help and advice from here.... Look forward to talking to you all.
Below is the outlook on my life...
I experienced my first panic attack when I was 13, sitting the entry exams for secondary school.
After this short period my life was clear from then onwards....
I was diagnosed with depression around aged 15, in which time I was admitted to the priory for therapy and during a brief period of self harm (2-3weeks) I spent a few days in there day centres receiving care. (depression running in my mums side of the family with my grandfather having 2 break downs and my mother also suffers from depression as well and anxiety, although the anxiety has been dormant for nearly 8years).
My life then carried on and I went through school with 12 GCSEs A*-C and 5 AS levels all Bs.
5 months into my final year at school I took a major turn again with depression due to stress from school, as well as moving home and re building a lifer after my parents separated and divorced.
From this point onwards I continued a pretty normal, however my school failed to give any support in these circumstances and I was asked to leave school without my full A level qualifications.
I continued socialising with my friends and doing everything every normal 18 year old guy does, however when my friends started university and I was left at home without a social circle and from this point I started getting my panic attacks again, due to lack of stimulation as I didn't need to work and all of a sudden my days were filled with nothing.
Now, 4 years on, I'm at one of my worst points. I now have panic attacks, health anxiety, depression, IBS (due to stress) and slight agoraphobia.
My health anxiety is better, after a 8 month period of believing I had meningitis, cancer as well as other things...
I've seen my GP and have had various tests done, for thyroid, diabetes, blood work, ECGs, and On paper I'm a healthy normal 22 year old...
My only diagnosed conditions are sinusitis (dust and animal related), asthma (related to hayfever and allergies), scoliosis (slight bend in my spine which causes back pain and bad posture), IBS, acid reflux and stress related headaches...
I'm at a dead end and feel desperate now to sort out my life. I'm 6 weeks into CBT and so far not finding it helps, however this may be due to my recent lack of concentration as in the hour sessions I listen but when I walk out the door I forget everything we spoke about within the following few hours...
My concern is I have grown an attachment to my mum and don't like her going away, and I won't go out far from home unless she is in the local area, which is imposing problems in my life.
I've recently lost 2 "best friends" due to my panic attacks and that their lack of understanding led events to occur which caused several arguments and this has knocked my self esteem to zero... Especially as other friends are also starting to loose their temper with my "excuses".
I'll finish my tale there as you'll be bored of reading now, but any further guidance would be appreciated as I really don't want to let these primes years fly by, and at aged 30 still be in this situation.
Thanks guys.
My names alex and I'm 22 years old and live in Kent, UK.
Glad I've found this site and hopefully get some good help and advice from here.... Look forward to talking to you all.
Below is the outlook on my life...
I experienced my first panic attack when I was 13, sitting the entry exams for secondary school.
After this short period my life was clear from then onwards....
I was diagnosed with depression around aged 15, in which time I was admitted to the priory for therapy and during a brief period of self harm (2-3weeks) I spent a few days in there day centres receiving care. (depression running in my mums side of the family with my grandfather having 2 break downs and my mother also suffers from depression as well and anxiety, although the anxiety has been dormant for nearly 8years).
My life then carried on and I went through school with 12 GCSEs A*-C and 5 AS levels all Bs.
5 months into my final year at school I took a major turn again with depression due to stress from school, as well as moving home and re building a lifer after my parents separated and divorced.
From this point onwards I continued a pretty normal, however my school failed to give any support in these circumstances and I was asked to leave school without my full A level qualifications.
I continued socialising with my friends and doing everything every normal 18 year old guy does, however when my friends started university and I was left at home without a social circle and from this point I started getting my panic attacks again, due to lack of stimulation as I didn't need to work and all of a sudden my days were filled with nothing.
Now, 4 years on, I'm at one of my worst points. I now have panic attacks, health anxiety, depression, IBS (due to stress) and slight agoraphobia.
My health anxiety is better, after a 8 month period of believing I had meningitis, cancer as well as other things...
I've seen my GP and have had various tests done, for thyroid, diabetes, blood work, ECGs, and On paper I'm a healthy normal 22 year old...
My only diagnosed conditions are sinusitis (dust and animal related), asthma (related to hayfever and allergies), scoliosis (slight bend in my spine which causes back pain and bad posture), IBS, acid reflux and stress related headaches...
I'm at a dead end and feel desperate now to sort out my life. I'm 6 weeks into CBT and so far not finding it helps, however this may be due to my recent lack of concentration as in the hour sessions I listen but when I walk out the door I forget everything we spoke about within the following few hours...
My concern is I have grown an attachment to my mum and don't like her going away, and I won't go out far from home unless she is in the local area, which is imposing problems in my life.
I've recently lost 2 "best friends" due to my panic attacks and that their lack of understanding led events to occur which caused several arguments and this has knocked my self esteem to zero... Especially as other friends are also starting to loose their temper with my "excuses".
I'll finish my tale there as you'll be bored of reading now, but any further guidance would be appreciated as I really don't want to let these primes years fly by, and at aged 30 still be in this situation.
Thanks guys.