QueenOfHearts
21-02-06, 20:21
Hi everyone,
I'm new here and have been reading around the forum. There is a lot of very good advice here and i'm wondering whether anyone could give me some advice?
Gosh its hard to know how far back to go. I came off antidepressants last summer after being on them for 5 years (i'm 21 now). I found the withdrawl terrible and it took me more than a year to finally come off them, but i had to because the side effects i was having made me unable to study at university and i felt the depression had lifted. I was fine for about 6 weeks until (i guess) the drugs finally worked their way out of my system. Then BANG i was hit with anxiety.
I've had a lot of problems in the last few months but it isn't that my problems are worse than anyone elses (despite people at uni thinking thats what i think) its just that i don't have the same coping mechanisms as other people. I used to be a fairly independant and confident person, but recently i've become a nervous wreck.
At the moment i'm waiting for my boyfriend to phone me. We always talk around this time of day (he's at uni in Sheffield and i'm in Southampton). And he hasn't phoned. Why not? Is he hurt? Is he out with friends? Why hasn't he at least texted me? Why won't he answer his phone? I'm extremely oversensitive and react to things i would have once brushed off (like critism) by crying and becoming very anxious. I think the thing with my boyfriend is exacerbated by the fact that he is meant to be coming to live with me later this year and last week said he had second thoughts. He says he was just worried and does want to come after all, but i can't believe that. He's just going to let me down and i'll be alone. I'm already alone here and i don't feel like i have many friends because they're so fed up of me being down.
I know my thought processes are over the top, and that i overeact to things. I just don't know how to make it stop. I am currently having cognitive behavioural therapy but she's not there in the morning when i wake and at night when i can't sleep.
I'm just scared i don't know what to do.
Sorry for such a long post.
I'm new here and have been reading around the forum. There is a lot of very good advice here and i'm wondering whether anyone could give me some advice?
Gosh its hard to know how far back to go. I came off antidepressants last summer after being on them for 5 years (i'm 21 now). I found the withdrawl terrible and it took me more than a year to finally come off them, but i had to because the side effects i was having made me unable to study at university and i felt the depression had lifted. I was fine for about 6 weeks until (i guess) the drugs finally worked their way out of my system. Then BANG i was hit with anxiety.
I've had a lot of problems in the last few months but it isn't that my problems are worse than anyone elses (despite people at uni thinking thats what i think) its just that i don't have the same coping mechanisms as other people. I used to be a fairly independant and confident person, but recently i've become a nervous wreck.
At the moment i'm waiting for my boyfriend to phone me. We always talk around this time of day (he's at uni in Sheffield and i'm in Southampton). And he hasn't phoned. Why not? Is he hurt? Is he out with friends? Why hasn't he at least texted me? Why won't he answer his phone? I'm extremely oversensitive and react to things i would have once brushed off (like critism) by crying and becoming very anxious. I think the thing with my boyfriend is exacerbated by the fact that he is meant to be coming to live with me later this year and last week said he had second thoughts. He says he was just worried and does want to come after all, but i can't believe that. He's just going to let me down and i'll be alone. I'm already alone here and i don't feel like i have many friends because they're so fed up of me being down.
I know my thought processes are over the top, and that i overeact to things. I just don't know how to make it stop. I am currently having cognitive behavioural therapy but she's not there in the morning when i wake and at night when i can't sleep.
I'm just scared i don't know what to do.
Sorry for such a long post.