Gareth
28-07-10, 14:31
Hi all,
I took Citalopram for about 10 months back in 2005/2006 when I first suffered with anxiety and depression. They were a godsend for me, worked so well once I got to my effective dose of 40mg.
I got ill again in July 2009, and started the Citalopram again 6 weeks ago. Unfortunately a different experience this time. I've felt much much worse ever since being on them, and in particular, when I went up to 30mg I took a huge nosedive - I felt like I didn't exist, literally couldn't move or function in any way for 3 days. Was very scary as this was the first time I couldn't work since I've had anxiety, and anxiety has so far taken everything from me except work, my wife, my home... The ability to work is all I have left.
So... I'm coming off them. I can't work like this, I need to know what is me, and on the drugs, I don't know what is me and what is the side effect of me messing with my brain chemistry.
Any thoughts from anyone? Would love to hear your advice and experiences. I am already back down to 20mg (for past week) and thinking of going down to 10mg for another couples of weeks and then stopping. I understand the "real" anxiety and the "real" depression will come back, and to be honest I can't remember if it was worse than this! I guess I'll find out soon.
be well,
Gareth
I took Citalopram for about 10 months back in 2005/2006 when I first suffered with anxiety and depression. They were a godsend for me, worked so well once I got to my effective dose of 40mg.
I got ill again in July 2009, and started the Citalopram again 6 weeks ago. Unfortunately a different experience this time. I've felt much much worse ever since being on them, and in particular, when I went up to 30mg I took a huge nosedive - I felt like I didn't exist, literally couldn't move or function in any way for 3 days. Was very scary as this was the first time I couldn't work since I've had anxiety, and anxiety has so far taken everything from me except work, my wife, my home... The ability to work is all I have left.
So... I'm coming off them. I can't work like this, I need to know what is me, and on the drugs, I don't know what is me and what is the side effect of me messing with my brain chemistry.
Any thoughts from anyone? Would love to hear your advice and experiences. I am already back down to 20mg (for past week) and thinking of going down to 10mg for another couples of weeks and then stopping. I understand the "real" anxiety and the "real" depression will come back, and to be honest I can't remember if it was worse than this! I guess I'll find out soon.
be well,
Gareth