linworth
30-07-10, 17:01
Hi
its me again, i am needing a lot of reassurance at the moment ! as i have said previously i had an increase in meds a few weeks ago, and sent my anxiety through the roof, actually terrified, of losing my mind, a deep dark impending doom etc.. Anyway i reduced back down last saturday and iam still making the decision if i am going to change meds or stay on my normal dose, Had a better day today, woke with the impending doom , but fought it off and took kids to school, i have not felt the overwhelming depression today, just been very agigtated waiting for it to come back, so have not been able to relax, although at some points it all seems like a bad dream. But just before the awful feeling washed over me, its horrible, makes me want to cry, run away etcc.. its a fear of... i dont quite know what, it like the fear i had at the weekend when i was bad, impending doom, self loathing, i dont exist??? i am losing my mind?? its awful its like the worst thing in the world is happening, but obviously it isnt. Can anyone please explain? i have only been having these intense fears since i upped the meds and since i have decreased, they are getting a bit less! what i would give and i suppose everyone on here would give just to wake in the morning and not have to think about what they are feeling !! take care lynne x
its me again, i am needing a lot of reassurance at the moment ! as i have said previously i had an increase in meds a few weeks ago, and sent my anxiety through the roof, actually terrified, of losing my mind, a deep dark impending doom etc.. Anyway i reduced back down last saturday and iam still making the decision if i am going to change meds or stay on my normal dose, Had a better day today, woke with the impending doom , but fought it off and took kids to school, i have not felt the overwhelming depression today, just been very agigtated waiting for it to come back, so have not been able to relax, although at some points it all seems like a bad dream. But just before the awful feeling washed over me, its horrible, makes me want to cry, run away etcc.. its a fear of... i dont quite know what, it like the fear i had at the weekend when i was bad, impending doom, self loathing, i dont exist??? i am losing my mind?? its awful its like the worst thing in the world is happening, but obviously it isnt. Can anyone please explain? i have only been having these intense fears since i upped the meds and since i have decreased, they are getting a bit less! what i would give and i suppose everyone on here would give just to wake in the morning and not have to think about what they are feeling !! take care lynne x