IHATEANXIETY
30-07-10, 18:43
Hi am new to the site so hope I'm doing this right! Have suffered from anxiety since my early twenties and for most of that time went untreated.
Had a nervous breakdown when I was 28 as my long term partner left me for someone else. Saw a counsellor which i arranged myself as my doctors were useless!
Finally changed my doctors surgery and at last got put on meds to help. Was put on Paroxetine 20mg and did help initaially. However still had issues especially with eating out and social gatherings which sent my anxiety through the roof! :wacko:
So ended up avoiding and that went on for years. Saw a hynotherapist privately at Harley Sreet £150 an hour, he was crap! Lurched a long for a few more years still plodding along on the 20mg dosage. No one recommended any other type of help to do along side the meds.
Met my partner 6 years ago who was great and explained to him upfront my problems and he still took me on! Well was loved up which helped enormously but then we moved house which turned out to be a nightmare. Had problems with his teen age kids and my anxiety just got out of control. I saw the crisis team twice as I was just so scared what I could do to myself. They dosed up with more meds which ended up making me worse! Finally I said I just wanted to die and would kill myself so ended up being admitted to hospital.
That was just like a youth club for adults and I didn't get any concrete help there was just left to my own devises. They did up my Paroxetine dosage to 40mg.
Some how when i was discharged with the help of my family and a fab dr at my surgery i turned a corner. I saw a CBT therapist again privately just because of the waiting time. Enrolled on an NHS anxiety course and managed to slowly get back to work who were great.
Have had a good run but this week started feeling crap again. Should have gone to London Weds but got myself so worked up didn't end up going. Since then been beating myself up and that old feeling is back.
Been to docs today and prescribed me lorazepam 1mg to help take the edge off.
Feel tired and really can't be bothered with anything or anyone. x
Had a nervous breakdown when I was 28 as my long term partner left me for someone else. Saw a counsellor which i arranged myself as my doctors were useless!
Finally changed my doctors surgery and at last got put on meds to help. Was put on Paroxetine 20mg and did help initaially. However still had issues especially with eating out and social gatherings which sent my anxiety through the roof! :wacko:
So ended up avoiding and that went on for years. Saw a hynotherapist privately at Harley Sreet £150 an hour, he was crap! Lurched a long for a few more years still plodding along on the 20mg dosage. No one recommended any other type of help to do along side the meds.
Met my partner 6 years ago who was great and explained to him upfront my problems and he still took me on! Well was loved up which helped enormously but then we moved house which turned out to be a nightmare. Had problems with his teen age kids and my anxiety just got out of control. I saw the crisis team twice as I was just so scared what I could do to myself. They dosed up with more meds which ended up making me worse! Finally I said I just wanted to die and would kill myself so ended up being admitted to hospital.
That was just like a youth club for adults and I didn't get any concrete help there was just left to my own devises. They did up my Paroxetine dosage to 40mg.
Some how when i was discharged with the help of my family and a fab dr at my surgery i turned a corner. I saw a CBT therapist again privately just because of the waiting time. Enrolled on an NHS anxiety course and managed to slowly get back to work who were great.
Have had a good run but this week started feeling crap again. Should have gone to London Weds but got myself so worked up didn't end up going. Since then been beating myself up and that old feeling is back.
Been to docs today and prescribed me lorazepam 1mg to help take the edge off.
Feel tired and really can't be bothered with anything or anyone. x