farhan
07-08-10, 17:05
okay so to cut it short,im a 18 year old kid that has done a few bad things in life which im not entirely proud of,yea we all will end up doing something stupid at some point of our lives anyways.
so heres the deal,i smoked pot 3 times,which led to my first panic attack.i felt everything was a dream(derealisation or depersonalisation wtvr),i was convinced i went crazy and suffered from a permanent mental illness!!
its been a year now since my last encounter with pot,and ive been getting these weird feelings and thoughts like im going to lose touch with reality.
not like'oh no farhan is pointing a gun in his head'kin of crazy.
more like,'reality is just my imagination,and at any moment i feel like waking up and realised that reality was just a dream'.
i couldnt help it,eventhough at times when im not thinking about it,but the feelings suddenly pop out of the blues,which lead me to think im going crazy.
SO WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME ??
again nice to meet some ppl here that could help me and ease some of the hard times ill be going through.(sorry for some of the grammar mistakes.english isnt my 1st language)
so heres the deal,i smoked pot 3 times,which led to my first panic attack.i felt everything was a dream(derealisation or depersonalisation wtvr),i was convinced i went crazy and suffered from a permanent mental illness!!
its been a year now since my last encounter with pot,and ive been getting these weird feelings and thoughts like im going to lose touch with reality.
not like'oh no farhan is pointing a gun in his head'kin of crazy.
more like,'reality is just my imagination,and at any moment i feel like waking up and realised that reality was just a dream'.
i couldnt help it,eventhough at times when im not thinking about it,but the feelings suddenly pop out of the blues,which lead me to think im going crazy.
SO WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME ??
again nice to meet some ppl here that could help me and ease some of the hard times ill be going through.(sorry for some of the grammar mistakes.english isnt my 1st language)