Hallvardo
14-08-10, 16:27
Hi everyone!
I keep reading about panic attacks, but find that my own experience is of a different kind, and parhaps needs to be treated differently...
My attacks have nothing to do with fear of death or bad things that could happen to me. They are abstract ideas that terrify me, and stem from a bad trip I had the time I tried marihuana 9 years ago.
Since they stem from an idea I find them much harder to rationalize away. The feeling of detachment from everything - that I am an organism floating in some kind of perpetual machine that will go on and on in all eternity. The feeling that there is no-one but me. No God. No other people. Just ideas of my imagination. No life or death. No escape...
This feeling really makes the idea of death feel like a great relief (I am not suicidal=)
Am I having panic attacks? Or is this some kind of panic-psychosis?
I keep reading about panic attacks, but find that my own experience is of a different kind, and parhaps needs to be treated differently...
My attacks have nothing to do with fear of death or bad things that could happen to me. They are abstract ideas that terrify me, and stem from a bad trip I had the time I tried marihuana 9 years ago.
Since they stem from an idea I find them much harder to rationalize away. The feeling of detachment from everything - that I am an organism floating in some kind of perpetual machine that will go on and on in all eternity. The feeling that there is no-one but me. No God. No other people. Just ideas of my imagination. No life or death. No escape...
This feeling really makes the idea of death feel like a great relief (I am not suicidal=)
Am I having panic attacks? Or is this some kind of panic-psychosis?