dewgrl2511
15-08-10, 18:00
I have only been a member for a little under 1 full day but feel this is a safe place to "let it out" on recommendation from a very good friend who is a member here.
I am feeling like I am going to explode. The depression and anxiety are worse today than they have been in such a long time. I thought I had a handle on it at one time. I am soo stressed and anxious about a court hearing i have later in the week and and with things involving my husband.. we had a HUGE row last night and it has just about tipped me over the edge. In the past I would deal with the anxiety by cutting and the urge is so strong to cut right now i feel like if i dont i am going to shatter into a million pieces. I keep bouncing back and forth from the verge of bursting into tears to just staring off into space in the vain attempt to get lost inside my cage of a mind that is so full of demons it would scare the average person. I am feeling so alone and abandoned. my heart is trying to beat out of my chest and my brain is seconds away from shot circuit blow out. I just want to go find a little corner somewhere that no one can find me and just hide away there for the rest of my life.
I am feeling like I am going to explode. The depression and anxiety are worse today than they have been in such a long time. I thought I had a handle on it at one time. I am soo stressed and anxious about a court hearing i have later in the week and and with things involving my husband.. we had a HUGE row last night and it has just about tipped me over the edge. In the past I would deal with the anxiety by cutting and the urge is so strong to cut right now i feel like if i dont i am going to shatter into a million pieces. I keep bouncing back and forth from the verge of bursting into tears to just staring off into space in the vain attempt to get lost inside my cage of a mind that is so full of demons it would scare the average person. I am feeling so alone and abandoned. my heart is trying to beat out of my chest and my brain is seconds away from shot circuit blow out. I just want to go find a little corner somewhere that no one can find me and just hide away there for the rest of my life.