harasgenster
28-08-10, 13:45
Hi
I seem to suffer from constant underlying anxiety but it definitely peaks about once a year due to "burn out".
I work very hard all the time, even when I don't have a job I find something to do and burn out because of that.
At the moment I have a job that is incredibly stressful and this month I have worked at least five hours of every weekend day and around 12-14 hours of every working day.
I know fine well that the reason things have got so out of hand is because I'm working so often I am getting slower through exhaustion thus having to work longer to get it done and it becomes a vicious circle!
Right now I can't avoid work because I have a huge amount to do by Tuesday because I was off with a virus this week.
However, after this I want to change things.
The main problem is that I have a very clear idea what I want to do with my life but I'm not doing it because I either need to work very hard at something else (like my job) that just needs to be done, or I procrastinate by doing other things because this dream is so important to me that trying to do it terrifies me! (What if I fail?)
I have overworked (at other things) since I started university (six years ago) and have managed to have several minor breakdowns since then due to overworking myself. At one point I dropped down to a size zero and ended up agoraphobic because of the massive strain I was putting myself under and tried to learn from what I had done but I just keep repeating the same behaviour!
What I want to do is learn to relax - about everything. I want to stop overworking on everything that's not particularly important to me and take a risk by having a go at the one thing that means the world to me. Ridiculously, I've dipped my toe in to the field I want to one day work in and found out I'm good at it, but I'm still terrified that I'll turn out to be too stupid!
Has anyone else had similar difficulties or is a workaholic? Has anyone found any good techniques to try and get out of this stupid pattern?
Thanks
I seem to suffer from constant underlying anxiety but it definitely peaks about once a year due to "burn out".
I work very hard all the time, even when I don't have a job I find something to do and burn out because of that.
At the moment I have a job that is incredibly stressful and this month I have worked at least five hours of every weekend day and around 12-14 hours of every working day.
I know fine well that the reason things have got so out of hand is because I'm working so often I am getting slower through exhaustion thus having to work longer to get it done and it becomes a vicious circle!
Right now I can't avoid work because I have a huge amount to do by Tuesday because I was off with a virus this week.
However, after this I want to change things.
The main problem is that I have a very clear idea what I want to do with my life but I'm not doing it because I either need to work very hard at something else (like my job) that just needs to be done, or I procrastinate by doing other things because this dream is so important to me that trying to do it terrifies me! (What if I fail?)
I have overworked (at other things) since I started university (six years ago) and have managed to have several minor breakdowns since then due to overworking myself. At one point I dropped down to a size zero and ended up agoraphobic because of the massive strain I was putting myself under and tried to learn from what I had done but I just keep repeating the same behaviour!
What I want to do is learn to relax - about everything. I want to stop overworking on everything that's not particularly important to me and take a risk by having a go at the one thing that means the world to me. Ridiculously, I've dipped my toe in to the field I want to one day work in and found out I'm good at it, but I'm still terrified that I'll turn out to be too stupid!
Has anyone else had similar difficulties or is a workaholic? Has anyone found any good techniques to try and get out of this stupid pattern?
Thanks