holly23
29-08-10, 12:05
hi. ive just been away on holiday...something i never thought id do, and although it was stressful and i was on edge everyday i enjoyed it. i felt reconnected with the world.!:)
i didnt have as many bad thoughts just physical symptoms. since ive been back though im starting to sink again. ive kept distracted, but im scared its building again. i have very vivid dreams every night which leave me waking up feeling strange and frightened! i question reality, wonder who i am in the world.? i dont feel like anyone understands me at all so therefore feel very alone even though im surrounded by a lovely family and lots of friends.
im on my summer holiday from uni so ive had to much time to sit and think.! i want to go out but dont feel motivation at all. somehow im battling it and i take rescue remedy religiously!!!! it really helps!! my question is- am i normal? i am thinking so much about life, what it is, where its going, what i am. coming to term with the fact that death is a part of life. scared by the thought that one day i just wont be here anymore! im in a rut. i question the brain.. how we do what we do. are these weird thoughts?
i know ive rambled on but this is all the gibber thats in my head. my fear is that i need med help because im actually loosing my mind!!
can anyone help?or is anyone experiencing the same thoughts?? thankyou ..p.s sorry for the essay. :( xxxxxxx
i didnt have as many bad thoughts just physical symptoms. since ive been back though im starting to sink again. ive kept distracted, but im scared its building again. i have very vivid dreams every night which leave me waking up feeling strange and frightened! i question reality, wonder who i am in the world.? i dont feel like anyone understands me at all so therefore feel very alone even though im surrounded by a lovely family and lots of friends.
im on my summer holiday from uni so ive had to much time to sit and think.! i want to go out but dont feel motivation at all. somehow im battling it and i take rescue remedy religiously!!!! it really helps!! my question is- am i normal? i am thinking so much about life, what it is, where its going, what i am. coming to term with the fact that death is a part of life. scared by the thought that one day i just wont be here anymore! im in a rut. i question the brain.. how we do what we do. are these weird thoughts?
i know ive rambled on but this is all the gibber thats in my head. my fear is that i need med help because im actually loosing my mind!!
can anyone help?or is anyone experiencing the same thoughts?? thankyou ..p.s sorry for the essay. :( xxxxxxx