joannap
30-08-10, 18:45
i just wanted others to know that we often think we cannot cope with things when we have anxiety but that we do have mega reserves of inner strength. last wednesday i went on holiday with my mum for 4 days to scotland - i was so proud of myself as literally every time i have been away i have either been physically ill or had a breakdown. i did feel very anxious at times but dealt with it. Ironically - my poor brother and his wife were up there (we joined them) having a holiday after they lost their own 2 year old spaniel unexpectedly.
the last night i was there - my husband rang in tears to say 3 out of our 4 dogs were critically ill at the vets after having picked up poison. we lost our lovely puppy within hours and the other 2 came home yesterday after literally being at deaths door - a vet nurse did not leave their side for 48 hrs. one is still poorly and we are not sure if they will be left with health problems. it was a horrible end to the holiday and my brother and his wife were in tears because not only were they upset for me - they had only lost their dog the week before and it brought it all back.
i had been feeling so upset for my brother and his wife and now this happens. i had also recently come down to 5m citalopram and dealing with daily anxiety and the aftermath of an overactive thyroid last year plus my husband has had his hours cut at work.
on the positive side however - it has really shown me that life is unpredictable and actually what you worry about rarely happens - it is the things you don;t worry about that do! and so it really is important to live in the moment and to try and save our anxiety for when bad things really happen. i am so so sad our youngest dog died but i could have been taking all three to the pet crematorium. i have taken the odd beta blocker but am really proud of myself for holding myself together x
the last night i was there - my husband rang in tears to say 3 out of our 4 dogs were critically ill at the vets after having picked up poison. we lost our lovely puppy within hours and the other 2 came home yesterday after literally being at deaths door - a vet nurse did not leave their side for 48 hrs. one is still poorly and we are not sure if they will be left with health problems. it was a horrible end to the holiday and my brother and his wife were in tears because not only were they upset for me - they had only lost their dog the week before and it brought it all back.
i had been feeling so upset for my brother and his wife and now this happens. i had also recently come down to 5m citalopram and dealing with daily anxiety and the aftermath of an overactive thyroid last year plus my husband has had his hours cut at work.
on the positive side however - it has really shown me that life is unpredictable and actually what you worry about rarely happens - it is the things you don;t worry about that do! and so it really is important to live in the moment and to try and save our anxiety for when bad things really happen. i am so so sad our youngest dog died but i could have been taking all three to the pet crematorium. i have taken the odd beta blocker but am really proud of myself for holding myself together x