crazytrain
31-08-10, 19:53
I had no idea there was a place like this with others like me. Its a relief to be able to post here and perhaps be understood:weep:
My HA is ruining my life. Breast cancer is the one I fear most and have feared since I was old enough to know what it was, even before I had breasts:D. Even so, once I get reassurance that I don't have BC, I then get symptoms of something else.
Right now the BC fear is rearing its ugly head again. I "find" a new lump almost daily and then I spend hours prodding it. The other day I checked one spot so much that it made a red/bruised area, so then I thought I must have inflammatory breast cancer, even though I knew that I had caused the area.
I'm so tired of living in fear. My husband has lost all patients with me. I've neglected my kids at times so I could spend time checking lumps and looking for info on-line. Any words of encouragement would be appreciated:flowers:
My HA is ruining my life. Breast cancer is the one I fear most and have feared since I was old enough to know what it was, even before I had breasts:D. Even so, once I get reassurance that I don't have BC, I then get symptoms of something else.
Right now the BC fear is rearing its ugly head again. I "find" a new lump almost daily and then I spend hours prodding it. The other day I checked one spot so much that it made a red/bruised area, so then I thought I must have inflammatory breast cancer, even though I knew that I had caused the area.
I'm so tired of living in fear. My husband has lost all patients with me. I've neglected my kids at times so I could spend time checking lumps and looking for info on-line. Any words of encouragement would be appreciated:flowers: