Sal x
28-02-06, 10:52
Hi Everyone...........
I have just got to get something off my chest...........(sorry in advance if I sound like I am moaning too much)
I have been fine over the past few months, the PA's have gone down to nil and the intrusive irrational thoughts have become a distant memory.........that is untill I have been having problems with work. The company has been a bit rocky now for a few months and last week we eventually went into Administration. I think I will find out today how long I have left here as there are only about 20 of us left of about an original 100.
Its really strange as I haven't been worried about it as I am in quite a lucky position in that I am married, and my hubby earns enough to support us both. But why has the health anxiety come back to bite me in the backside now ???
I have my own theory that it is impossible for our minds to worry, sorry, obsess in my case, about more than one thing at once.
I think my subconcious mind is telling me :
"hang on, you don't ever worry about normal things that are happening in your life, but you are feeling anxious about something, I know, I will make you obsess about something I know really frightens you IE : Dying"
Can anyone relate to this ??
I was speaking to a friend yesterday who told me that someone we both knew had died out of the blue last week after going for a lie down.....I immediatly went into a panic, but was able to control it as best I could as i was at work.
My thoughts were "This WILL happen to me if I feel ill and go for a lie down" which then brings on headaches, dizziness etc....and this becames a visious circle.
I am trying so hard not to avoid talking about death as I think this won't help me in the long run as I just want to like mosy other people and just brush things like that off as unusual cases and then just carry on without obsessing (sorry if this is not making much sense)
I really want to look on the up side of life, as I am 27 and what are the chances of me dying suddenly for no reason ?????
I would be grateful for other peoples views and experiances of this.
Thanks
Sal x [xx(]
I have just got to get something off my chest...........(sorry in advance if I sound like I am moaning too much)
I have been fine over the past few months, the PA's have gone down to nil and the intrusive irrational thoughts have become a distant memory.........that is untill I have been having problems with work. The company has been a bit rocky now for a few months and last week we eventually went into Administration. I think I will find out today how long I have left here as there are only about 20 of us left of about an original 100.
Its really strange as I haven't been worried about it as I am in quite a lucky position in that I am married, and my hubby earns enough to support us both. But why has the health anxiety come back to bite me in the backside now ???
I have my own theory that it is impossible for our minds to worry, sorry, obsess in my case, about more than one thing at once.
I think my subconcious mind is telling me :
"hang on, you don't ever worry about normal things that are happening in your life, but you are feeling anxious about something, I know, I will make you obsess about something I know really frightens you IE : Dying"
Can anyone relate to this ??
I was speaking to a friend yesterday who told me that someone we both knew had died out of the blue last week after going for a lie down.....I immediatly went into a panic, but was able to control it as best I could as i was at work.
My thoughts were "This WILL happen to me if I feel ill and go for a lie down" which then brings on headaches, dizziness etc....and this becames a visious circle.
I am trying so hard not to avoid talking about death as I think this won't help me in the long run as I just want to like mosy other people and just brush things like that off as unusual cases and then just carry on without obsessing (sorry if this is not making much sense)
I really want to look on the up side of life, as I am 27 and what are the chances of me dying suddenly for no reason ?????
I would be grateful for other peoples views and experiances of this.
Thanks
Sal x [xx(]