winterjas
02-09-10, 21:37
My anxiety / depression started as soon as we moved into our house 4 years ago. We have been been plagued by noisy neighbours for years, and have gone through hell with various complaints from, loud music, all night parties, washing machine on all night, doors banging etc etc etc. The trouble is we own our home, and since the house price crash cannot afford to move. The house next door is privately rented and we are now on our 4th set of tennents, who thank god are quiet. but I am dreading next month when the lease will be up for renewal and we could possibly get new neighbours and the hell will start all over again. the toruble is the walls are so thin its a nightmare.
I never suffered from anxiety or anything until moving in here, now I am anxious all the time when I am in the house and dreas any noise whatsoever. I also avoid having poeple round in case their are any noises. I am always ok at work, out socially, on holidays, at others houses. It is ruining my life and my children are beginning to sense my problems.
I have been on and off meds over the years, which just made me a zombie, and didn't cure anything.
I am now trying to heal myself without help, and have been wondering whether the root of my problems run deeper. I want to learn to break this cycle of anxiety and tenseness when I am at home.
I didn't have a particularly happy childhood. My mother never showed she loved me, although I never went without and we get on ok, besides a had a lovely wider family. My step father was a drunk though, and would come home late and smash things up and row with my mum. i rememner laying in bed feeling anxious until he came home, dreading what would happen - most of the time he and mum would just go to bed, but on the occasions they would row I would lay awake with covers over my ears while they argued, this went on from the age of about 8 until I moved out at 18. I am wondering if this is where the sensititvity to noise comes from? or the feeling of dread at coming home, as I used to get this when I was younger, although ive never had it in any other place ive lived in since moving out.
I also had a particularly bad birth experience with my last child two years ago, it was very frightening and I thought I was going to die. Even though my anxiety started before I was even pregnant, it has worsened since the birth, but that may be because after he was born the neighbours at the time were the worst of all. Maybe this is another reason?
I just dont know anymore.....I cant be like this because of the neighbours can I? :weep:
I never suffered from anxiety or anything until moving in here, now I am anxious all the time when I am in the house and dreas any noise whatsoever. I also avoid having poeple round in case their are any noises. I am always ok at work, out socially, on holidays, at others houses. It is ruining my life and my children are beginning to sense my problems.
I have been on and off meds over the years, which just made me a zombie, and didn't cure anything.
I am now trying to heal myself without help, and have been wondering whether the root of my problems run deeper. I want to learn to break this cycle of anxiety and tenseness when I am at home.
I didn't have a particularly happy childhood. My mother never showed she loved me, although I never went without and we get on ok, besides a had a lovely wider family. My step father was a drunk though, and would come home late and smash things up and row with my mum. i rememner laying in bed feeling anxious until he came home, dreading what would happen - most of the time he and mum would just go to bed, but on the occasions they would row I would lay awake with covers over my ears while they argued, this went on from the age of about 8 until I moved out at 18. I am wondering if this is where the sensititvity to noise comes from? or the feeling of dread at coming home, as I used to get this when I was younger, although ive never had it in any other place ive lived in since moving out.
I also had a particularly bad birth experience with my last child two years ago, it was very frightening and I thought I was going to die. Even though my anxiety started before I was even pregnant, it has worsened since the birth, but that may be because after he was born the neighbours at the time were the worst of all. Maybe this is another reason?
I just dont know anymore.....I cant be like this because of the neighbours can I? :weep: