shirtie86
04-09-10, 18:56
Hey
I'm posting for some reassurance I feel like I've hit a brick wall and I don't know what direction to take at the moment.
Everything was ok I was managing my anxiety fine and I had completed my first year at university. Then my Nan passed away in march and then the same night my Nan passed away my other Nan fell and broke her hip I blame myself for my Nan's fall as I wasn't with her at the time she fell.
She was taken to hospital and I visited her every chance I got facing my fears of the hospital to visit her. She came out of hospital only to fall ill again with an infection she caught in the hospital so this continued she came in and out of hospital 4 times the last time she went in she told me she wasn't going to get any better and told me she loved me and that was the last time I saw her the following day I visited she became unconscious and me and my family stayed with her until she passed away.
She was a massive part of my life I had seen her everyday for 25 years and always felt I could talk to her about anything she helped with my anxiety stress and agoraphobia.
Now shes gone I don't know what to do I'm worrying about how I feel constantly I've got a headache which is a new symptom to appear pressure and pain across my forehead and sometimes on top of my head dull ache pain killers don't seem to shift it. I feel unreal spaced out a lot of the time cant concentrate or find motivation to do anything my girlfriend says its stress and anxiety and grief all pilled into one but I can't seem to believe her I'm convinced I've got a brain tumor or blood clot.
I'm finding it difficult to cope because I don't know what I should be coping with grief anxiety or stress
Paul
I'm posting for some reassurance I feel like I've hit a brick wall and I don't know what direction to take at the moment.
Everything was ok I was managing my anxiety fine and I had completed my first year at university. Then my Nan passed away in march and then the same night my Nan passed away my other Nan fell and broke her hip I blame myself for my Nan's fall as I wasn't with her at the time she fell.
She was taken to hospital and I visited her every chance I got facing my fears of the hospital to visit her. She came out of hospital only to fall ill again with an infection she caught in the hospital so this continued she came in and out of hospital 4 times the last time she went in she told me she wasn't going to get any better and told me she loved me and that was the last time I saw her the following day I visited she became unconscious and me and my family stayed with her until she passed away.
She was a massive part of my life I had seen her everyday for 25 years and always felt I could talk to her about anything she helped with my anxiety stress and agoraphobia.
Now shes gone I don't know what to do I'm worrying about how I feel constantly I've got a headache which is a new symptom to appear pressure and pain across my forehead and sometimes on top of my head dull ache pain killers don't seem to shift it. I feel unreal spaced out a lot of the time cant concentrate or find motivation to do anything my girlfriend says its stress and anxiety and grief all pilled into one but I can't seem to believe her I'm convinced I've got a brain tumor or blood clot.
I'm finding it difficult to cope because I don't know what I should be coping with grief anxiety or stress
Paul