I wrote some poems.

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Two poems here, One about my freind. Second one, If not appropriate, delete but poetry (never done it before seems to help me and get my feelings out). It is merely a poem and has no real meaning.

Bec,

To me you mean everything in the universe
You look after me so well and thoughtfully, you are my nurse

You are the most special person I have ever known
For so long, you have been my coping stone

You radiate beauty is everyway
You wake up gorgeous everyday

You will never realise just how much you mean to me
And anyone who knows how much I talk about you would agree

You are my life, my beauty, my special person
And without you my life could only worsen.

Bec, I thank you from the bottom of my heart
That will be here at the end, the middle and the start

I don¡¦t know what I would have done without you
No doubt my life would have been very blue

With you my future seems brighter
You are the real strong one in this relationship,
The real fighter.

Thank you for everything,
Paul ļ


Life

One thing I have found in my short time on this earth
Is there is rarely anything of great worth

It becomes clearer as each drooling day passes by
Most people live in a dream and live a lie

Does anyone really live at all or is it just a hallucination?
Are we not really here?
Between our minds and bodies is merely an amputation
The rain continues to fall that nothing will ever be clear

I feel this life I don¡¦t want to be included
And by thinking happiness I am just deluded

It is hard to function, I concentrate on my breath
But I continue to have greater visions of death

I am nauseated by my feelings and thought
Happiness cannot be taught

What do I envision for Paul Dale?
Somebody to find my disembodied torso blue and pale
With my head close by
And people asking why

Wondering how someone could tear their own head off
They will then lay on me a white cloth
I will be finally laid to get some much needed sleep
Only around 6 feet deep

But I will now be in a higher place
Where I can feel feelings of happiness and grace
People will cry but wounds heal over time
And people will be happy I am out of this world of slime

The stench of my body decomposing
The walls are no longer closing
We have found the ultimate happiness
What is life but a mass of displeasures?
I must take drastic measures
To ensure I don¡¦t suffer this pain
From suicide I will not refrain


It is pretty simple really
I hate life dearly
Faith I am am out of nearly

I am no longer scared to bleed
This is the only way to really succeed
To leave this life of pain and sordidness
Suicide is real success


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And another to my best mate who is always there for me.

Mick,

I don’t know what I would do without you Mick
I would like to pursue a relationship with you if you were only a chick
(Sorry had to throw that in lol)

You are always there for me, day or night, rain or shine
And listen day after day to me whine

You are Caring and giving
A friend like you makes it more enjoyable to continue living

Anyone who can be so generous
In my book is already a great success

You are fun and a pleasure to be around
Even when my faith in life has been drowned

I am glad I have found someone who is so dependable
Every personality trait is commendable

Your friendship is utterly unblemished
A better mate, I could not have wished

When I need attention, yours is undivided
There is no one more within I have confided

Mick, thank you for being a true companion
Whether you realise it or not, your heart is much larger than the Grand Canyon

Thank You
Paul


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[Ma Larkin]

Paul, they are brilliant, but look at the difference between your life & the poems about your friends. You have got 2 people there who you obviously mean a lot to. Believe in yourself Paul, your life isn't worthless & you've just proved that with your talent.

Les

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Thank you :)

As I said, it is merely poetry and I did not want to upset anyone with my Life poem but it helps to get my feelings out and I feel much better after writing it.

Thanks Again,
Paul

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[Ma Larkin]

I wish I could put my feelings down on paper as a poem, god knows what i'd come up with (doesn't bear thinking about lol!). I might give it a try when I have some time to think.

Glad you've got some good mates, can I borrow 'em haha!!

Les

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Funnily enough, I have two great mates only. My fiance and my best mate who lives across the road who has been thru it and understands.

I never liked poetry but it just seemed right recently.

Thanks again
paul

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[Alexandra]

Hi Paul,

They are really good hun.

Well done[8D]

Take Care

Alex

Many People Will Walk
In & Out Of Your Life
But Only True Friends
Will Leave Footprints
In Your Heart

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Thanks All,

Another:

Homesick Alien
I am a homesick alien
To find the happy place is where I long to be

I have bruises that won’t heal
Soon I will consume my last meal

I don’t want participate in this cruel world
I am nauseated by the constant pain

Daybreak is the birth of more misery
Dusk is the birth of more nightmares

I spend my days filled with anticipation and anxiety
My nights with disturbing thoughts and hallucinations

What is war, what is life
Meaningless agony to endure

Silence is good, silence is favorable
Termination is glorious, termination is my objective

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