Fear of Stroke and heartattack phase

[johansaken]

I cant cope with it. Im really goin strong. getting my life back together. ANd now once again ha hits me like a freakin train. Im so damn tired of being scared of this S**T! everday. I fight it as much as I can. But I have days that it totally destroys me.

Anything triggers it when im vulnerable. Visualdisturbance, floaters, spots, wierdfeeling wherever.
Anyone else dealing with or has conquered these fears, please get back to me. I really need you guys. I grow so damn tired...... :weep:

[cattttt]

It's a constant battle that comes and goes, hang in there, you'll get through this one too. I live with all this too, in the good times, I wonder what I was worrying about, and then something sets it off and I'm struggling again. Have you had counselling? It really helps. I've been doing biofeedback with a psychologist, not cheap, but well worthwhile.

[johansaken]

Im in therapy since 4 years back. for childhood trauma and Borderline. Problem is, I got an episode about 3 years back that I suspect was a T I A.

A transient ischemic attack (abbreviated as TIA, often colloquially referred to as “mini stroke”) is a change in the blood supply to a particular area of the brain, resulting in brief neurologic dysfunction that persists, by definition, for less than 24 hours. If symptoms persist longer, then it is categorized as a stroke.

Now this part (below) descibes that episode perfectly. I been worrying alot but when I read this I got calm. Ive been trying to understand what it was and been livin in fear of that unknown. Its "just" T.I.A and I can prevent a worst case scenario. In no way has this been diagnosed. But I will start taking action today.

The most frequent symptoms include temporary loss of vision (typically amaurosis fugax (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Amaurosis_fugax)); difficulty speaking (aphasia (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Aphasia)); weakness on one side of the body (hemiparesis (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hemiparesis)); and numbness or tingling (paresthesia (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Paresthesia)), usually on one side of the body. Impairment of consciousness is very uncommon. There have been cases where there has been a temporary paralysis of a part of the face and the tongue. The symptoms of a TIA are short lived and usually lasts a few seconds to a few minutes and most symptoms disappear within 60 minutes. Some individuals may have a lingering feeling that something odd happened to the body. Dizziness (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dizziness), lack of coordination or poor balance are also symptoms related to TIA

Im 31, this happend at the age of 28

[blueangel]

Hi there

Sorry to hear that you're feeling so bad. Did you ever go to see a doctor about this episode, or did you just think it was a TIA? You do need to get a proper diagnosis as there is treatment available to help stop it happening again.

[johansaken]

Hey again and thanks for answers/support.

At the time I didnt go to the doctor. Confused and frightened I didnt contact the doctor. I thought it was epilepsy or something else. Read the symptoms of TIA yesterday and it dawned upon me. I will go see the local doctor soon. Also been in contact with neurologist they said I have the right to get examined properly. And after I been to the doctor they will hopefully get me an appointment at the neurologist. And yeah, that there is help is very calming.

And the nurse at the neurologist office said that if my doctor dont do it right, or wont take it seriously I should contact the neurologist again to get an appointment.

Feel reassured. Since my fear of losing control comes down to that episode. If I get help with that I am confident that my HA will change.