drewzilla
07-09-10, 23:02
Hi there,
I am a long time health anxiety sufferer and currently going through what is either a serious disease, or my worst anxiety setback since I was first diagnosed 10 years ago.
I came off medication (Cipramil) 5 years ago and have coped well enough, something I put down to CBT.
However, a series of events towards the end of 2009 (a friend nearly passing away due to a brain hemorrhage, a double bout of Norovirus) seemed to trigger a downward spiral. Since then I have had the stress of moving home and have become increasingly stressed at work. I am happy to recognise that my anxiety levels have continued to rise and that I've entered a viscious cycle of fear - anxiety brings on physical symptoms that I then put down to a serious disease. But, I just can't shake the feeling that there is some serious disease brewing. The past two weeks things have been getting worse and worse. My main symptoms have been:
Fatigue (comes in waves and can be quite intense)
'Weak', stiff and painful arms and legs
Twitching muscles
Lightheadedness
Shortness of breath (yawning)
Nighttime panic attacks (and just general sleep issues)
Feeling rough when I wake in the morning
Racing mind
Constant worry about serious disease (MS/ALS/MND, Cancer)
I could go on with symptoms but that's enough to paint a good picture.
The things I'm really worried about are the muscle stiffness and the fatigue. I've especially noticed my muscles becoming more and more tight in the last few weeks. I freaked out tonight because I rode a bike and my legs felt like they almost seized up when I finished - it wasn't strenuous riding either. My wrist then felt really tight after playing the piano. Does anyone else notice this? Could it be that constant adrenaline is effectively damaging my muscles so that, when I exercise them, they are already in bad shape?
I saw my GP recently and he did blood tests that all came back clear. I had similarly clear blood tests in January after the Norovirus onslaught. My GP is sure that this is just a setback of my anxiety disorder.
I really can't see a way out right now. I feel resigned that maybe it is not anxiety this time and that a serious disease has finally struck me down. I don't see an end to this exhaustion and find it hard to believe that I can feel so rough without there being some serious physical cause. Getting to work is becoming more and more of a struggle and I don't know how much longer I can drag myself along trying to live a normal life. Everyday is just a fight against fatigue.
Any reassurances about the muscle stiffness and fatigue would be much appreciated. I thought exercise was meant to be good for anxiety and relieving muscle stiffness!
Andrew
I am a long time health anxiety sufferer and currently going through what is either a serious disease, or my worst anxiety setback since I was first diagnosed 10 years ago.
I came off medication (Cipramil) 5 years ago and have coped well enough, something I put down to CBT.
However, a series of events towards the end of 2009 (a friend nearly passing away due to a brain hemorrhage, a double bout of Norovirus) seemed to trigger a downward spiral. Since then I have had the stress of moving home and have become increasingly stressed at work. I am happy to recognise that my anxiety levels have continued to rise and that I've entered a viscious cycle of fear - anxiety brings on physical symptoms that I then put down to a serious disease. But, I just can't shake the feeling that there is some serious disease brewing. The past two weeks things have been getting worse and worse. My main symptoms have been:
Fatigue (comes in waves and can be quite intense)
'Weak', stiff and painful arms and legs
Twitching muscles
Lightheadedness
Shortness of breath (yawning)
Nighttime panic attacks (and just general sleep issues)
Feeling rough when I wake in the morning
Racing mind
Constant worry about serious disease (MS/ALS/MND, Cancer)
I could go on with symptoms but that's enough to paint a good picture.
The things I'm really worried about are the muscle stiffness and the fatigue. I've especially noticed my muscles becoming more and more tight in the last few weeks. I freaked out tonight because I rode a bike and my legs felt like they almost seized up when I finished - it wasn't strenuous riding either. My wrist then felt really tight after playing the piano. Does anyone else notice this? Could it be that constant adrenaline is effectively damaging my muscles so that, when I exercise them, they are already in bad shape?
I saw my GP recently and he did blood tests that all came back clear. I had similarly clear blood tests in January after the Norovirus onslaught. My GP is sure that this is just a setback of my anxiety disorder.
I really can't see a way out right now. I feel resigned that maybe it is not anxiety this time and that a serious disease has finally struck me down. I don't see an end to this exhaustion and find it hard to believe that I can feel so rough without there being some serious physical cause. Getting to work is becoming more and more of a struggle and I don't know how much longer I can drag myself along trying to live a normal life. Everyday is just a fight against fatigue.
Any reassurances about the muscle stiffness and fatigue would be much appreciated. I thought exercise was meant to be good for anxiety and relieving muscle stiffness!
Andrew