x_Meep_x
01-03-06, 14:57
Erm....well, i dont really know where to start now im here.
My names Nat and im 17.
I had my very first panic attack after having an extremely disturbing nightmare when i was really young. Ever since then i have certain "rituals" i have to do before i sleep to make sure it wont happen again.
After school i went to sixth form and hated it, every Sunday night i'd have an attack as i was trying to get to sleep but they were never that severe. After the first year i left 6th form and started at a new college.
Right now i have a loving b/f, good family relationships and enjoy college yet the panic attacks have returned worse than ever.
For the past year and a half i've been suffering from them on a regular basis, but only a few times a month. For the past couple of months though they've increased and for the past 2 weeks i've had at least two a day, for no reason at all. I began to think i was going crazy as i'd see things that i knew weren't there, shake uncontrollably, have to use the toilet constantly, become dizzy and have trouble focusing on anything, i began to think i wasn't real and this scared me even more.
Going to bed on a night has become the most terrifying thing in my life. I thought panic attacks only lasted a few minutes but i've experienced symptoms of them that last hours, after reading up about them i now understand more.
I went to the doctors yesterday, (which was a big enough struggle for me to sit in the waiting room without panicking) and he gave me some beta-blockers to try control them.
I hope i beat them or at least manage to control them because at the minute they're controlling my life, and ruining it. I hate the feeling of not being in control, not knowing whether things will ever get better or not.
The slightest thing can trigger me, for example if im cold and i shiver that makes me think of shaking so i start to shake and then panic. Sometimes i feel in complete and utter despair because of them, a feeling so strong that it really is difficult to put into words.
Knowing that im not going crazy and that other people experience the same thing eases me a little.
I just hope im on the road to recovery now :)
Nat
My names Nat and im 17.
I had my very first panic attack after having an extremely disturbing nightmare when i was really young. Ever since then i have certain "rituals" i have to do before i sleep to make sure it wont happen again.
After school i went to sixth form and hated it, every Sunday night i'd have an attack as i was trying to get to sleep but they were never that severe. After the first year i left 6th form and started at a new college.
Right now i have a loving b/f, good family relationships and enjoy college yet the panic attacks have returned worse than ever.
For the past year and a half i've been suffering from them on a regular basis, but only a few times a month. For the past couple of months though they've increased and for the past 2 weeks i've had at least two a day, for no reason at all. I began to think i was going crazy as i'd see things that i knew weren't there, shake uncontrollably, have to use the toilet constantly, become dizzy and have trouble focusing on anything, i began to think i wasn't real and this scared me even more.
Going to bed on a night has become the most terrifying thing in my life. I thought panic attacks only lasted a few minutes but i've experienced symptoms of them that last hours, after reading up about them i now understand more.
I went to the doctors yesterday, (which was a big enough struggle for me to sit in the waiting room without panicking) and he gave me some beta-blockers to try control them.
I hope i beat them or at least manage to control them because at the minute they're controlling my life, and ruining it. I hate the feeling of not being in control, not knowing whether things will ever get better or not.
The slightest thing can trigger me, for example if im cold and i shiver that makes me think of shaking so i start to shake and then panic. Sometimes i feel in complete and utter despair because of them, a feeling so strong that it really is difficult to put into words.
Knowing that im not going crazy and that other people experience the same thing eases me a little.
I just hope im on the road to recovery now :)
Nat