holly23
10-09-10, 00:51
ive had a really good couple of weeks. i faced my fear, and went away , came back feeling refreshed and for the first time things just got better and better and anxiety basically fizzled out!! last few days though, ive not had it as bad however theres almost been a few thoughts just haunting me...back of my mind. i have very vivid dreams that leave me most of the time feeling afraid...of what i dont know.! i keep thinking about reality etc. how everything works...how i work even.
im carrying on with normal life i think. panic has not happened but im just scared all the time!! why has it come back, i keep asking!! its weird. i dreamt the world was ending the other night. i woke up crying, it was so real, ive convinced myself something bad is going to happen. i watch the sky everyday wondering if its normal!!
i know this sounds strange but every so often i have flash backs to dreams i had when i was younger, i also get instant memories from my childhood and wonder if they were real or dreams?? i cant understand why. it all seems so scary and sereal.
does anyone out there experience these effects from dreams.?? question reality? sometimes im scared to go to sleep. i find comfort in movies etc but then freak that my mind is getting frazzled and im getting cought up in to many films! lol. i feel stupid saying all this now but i just want it to go away!. crying helps me with anxiety..a release ..but i cant seem to cry at the moment but i feel i need to!! omg. sorry for the essay but i just dont know anymore. am i crazy!! im functioning normally but these are lingering thoughts at the moment.
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im carrying on with normal life i think. panic has not happened but im just scared all the time!! why has it come back, i keep asking!! its weird. i dreamt the world was ending the other night. i woke up crying, it was so real, ive convinced myself something bad is going to happen. i watch the sky everyday wondering if its normal!!
i know this sounds strange but every so often i have flash backs to dreams i had when i was younger, i also get instant memories from my childhood and wonder if they were real or dreams?? i cant understand why. it all seems so scary and sereal.
does anyone out there experience these effects from dreams.?? question reality? sometimes im scared to go to sleep. i find comfort in movies etc but then freak that my mind is getting frazzled and im getting cought up in to many films! lol. i feel stupid saying all this now but i just want it to go away!. crying helps me with anxiety..a release ..but i cant seem to cry at the moment but i feel i need to!! omg. sorry for the essay but i just dont know anymore. am i crazy!! im functioning normally but these are lingering thoughts at the moment.
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