MisterRabbit
10-09-10, 22:34
Hello again. :)
Need to sound off a bit, or just express my fears.. i dunno, whatever.
As i said in my introductory post, i'm 26 and have had anxiety for over a year.
It's anxiety i can't explain and also HA.
I feel a shadow of my former self, which sounds really stupid, but i'm so unhappy with myself recently. I was on Citalopram when i first started having anxiety attacks, but i couldn't cope with the nausea and i felt it was just overly exaggerating my symptoms. I immediately stopped taking it and for about 5 months or so I felt ok again. I recently had a relapse which brought me crashing back down to earth again. (If it wasn't for this website i'd be alot worse.) So my doctor has put me on fluoxetine which has given me random insomnia, but again, i digress.
I guess what i'm getting at is that i've been with my fiancee for 5 and a half years and although she's supportive towards me, i feel like i'm ruining her life with it all. I know she tries to understand what i'm going through, but as many of you know, you can't understand anxiety unless you physically experience it. She said to me today that "we don't have a laugh anymore" and i don't really know how to take that. I just wish I was a happier and more upbeat person, even just for her sake but the worry of losing the love of my life is intensely exaggerating my anxiety, so i guess it's a vicious circle.
Sorry for the long winded post, but i needed to get it out.
Also, thank you NMP, don't think i'd cope the same without you. :bighug1:
Need to sound off a bit, or just express my fears.. i dunno, whatever.
As i said in my introductory post, i'm 26 and have had anxiety for over a year.
It's anxiety i can't explain and also HA.
I feel a shadow of my former self, which sounds really stupid, but i'm so unhappy with myself recently. I was on Citalopram when i first started having anxiety attacks, but i couldn't cope with the nausea and i felt it was just overly exaggerating my symptoms. I immediately stopped taking it and for about 5 months or so I felt ok again. I recently had a relapse which brought me crashing back down to earth again. (If it wasn't for this website i'd be alot worse.) So my doctor has put me on fluoxetine which has given me random insomnia, but again, i digress.
I guess what i'm getting at is that i've been with my fiancee for 5 and a half years and although she's supportive towards me, i feel like i'm ruining her life with it all. I know she tries to understand what i'm going through, but as many of you know, you can't understand anxiety unless you physically experience it. She said to me today that "we don't have a laugh anymore" and i don't really know how to take that. I just wish I was a happier and more upbeat person, even just for her sake but the worry of losing the love of my life is intensely exaggerating my anxiety, so i guess it's a vicious circle.
Sorry for the long winded post, but i needed to get it out.
Also, thank you NMP, don't think i'd cope the same without you. :bighug1: