MrsCluggy
02-03-06, 09:12
Hi
I thought this would probably be the right platform for me to let go of my worries. My husband and I have been married for nearly 6 years and have a 5 year old son. I have suffered with anxiety for about a year and a half now and it's only recently that my husband has sort of distanced himself from me and joined the "pull yourself together" brigade. This makes any emotion that I feel for him very difficult to put into practice. I often look at him when he's doing something and I just think how much do I still love you and how much do you still love me. I am sure, at the very back of my mind, that we are just together because of our son. Unfortunately, fuel is added to my despair because he works in an environment of 'young fillies' who he has such a good rapport with and is the first person they call if a party is being organised. He is a very big character. Unfortunately, for me, I had to endure women coming up to him at the last Christmas party, sitting in MY chair when I wasn't there, one woman pulled up her shirt and shoved her belly ring in his face. I have to admit, I have checked his mobile phone on a number of occasions. Nothing was there, but it eased my conscience somewhat. However, he has just received yet another invitation to a birthday party, fancy dress, the theme being SUPERHEROES. As soon as he mentioned this to me I just saw thin, sexy girls all dressed as Wonder Woman and Cat Woman in Skin tight lycra, and me dressed as some dumpy old mother hubbard. I really, really don't want to go because as soon as I walk in the room I will want to burst out crying. A girl he works with has already phoned him telling him that she was going as Wonder Woman but her boobs aren't big enough to hold the costume up !!! Our sexual relationship is just totally non-existant. He hasn't come near me since last November and I really don't know how to approach him to try to get back on the "band wagon" as it where, because my anxiety, my low self esteem and depression just make it so difficult for me to feel happy about anything. I don't for one minute believe he is being unfaithful but I really do think it is just a matter of time before he can resist some thin, bubbly woman throwing herself all over him and him giving in. I don't know what to do. I don't know how to get out of this rut. Anyone got any ideas? I really am desparate.
If the opportunity doesn't knock .... build a door.
If the opportunity doesn't knock .... build a door.
I thought this would probably be the right platform for me to let go of my worries. My husband and I have been married for nearly 6 years and have a 5 year old son. I have suffered with anxiety for about a year and a half now and it's only recently that my husband has sort of distanced himself from me and joined the "pull yourself together" brigade. This makes any emotion that I feel for him very difficult to put into practice. I often look at him when he's doing something and I just think how much do I still love you and how much do you still love me. I am sure, at the very back of my mind, that we are just together because of our son. Unfortunately, fuel is added to my despair because he works in an environment of 'young fillies' who he has such a good rapport with and is the first person they call if a party is being organised. He is a very big character. Unfortunately, for me, I had to endure women coming up to him at the last Christmas party, sitting in MY chair when I wasn't there, one woman pulled up her shirt and shoved her belly ring in his face. I have to admit, I have checked his mobile phone on a number of occasions. Nothing was there, but it eased my conscience somewhat. However, he has just received yet another invitation to a birthday party, fancy dress, the theme being SUPERHEROES. As soon as he mentioned this to me I just saw thin, sexy girls all dressed as Wonder Woman and Cat Woman in Skin tight lycra, and me dressed as some dumpy old mother hubbard. I really, really don't want to go because as soon as I walk in the room I will want to burst out crying. A girl he works with has already phoned him telling him that she was going as Wonder Woman but her boobs aren't big enough to hold the costume up !!! Our sexual relationship is just totally non-existant. He hasn't come near me since last November and I really don't know how to approach him to try to get back on the "band wagon" as it where, because my anxiety, my low self esteem and depression just make it so difficult for me to feel happy about anything. I don't for one minute believe he is being unfaithful but I really do think it is just a matter of time before he can resist some thin, bubbly woman throwing herself all over him and him giving in. I don't know what to do. I don't know how to get out of this rut. Anyone got any ideas? I really am desparate.
If the opportunity doesn't knock .... build a door.
If the opportunity doesn't knock .... build a door.