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Blasted anxieties, I hate them!!! :wacko:
I have been doing really well last couple of weeks or so, since being put on Olanzapine. My thoughts have calmed - I have felt good, but I didn't take any tablets over the weekend as I felt really good, but last night, lying in bed....mini attack happened, and then it got worse as I told myself that it was because I wasn't taking my meds....so I quickly took one, but they are slow releasing so it didn't help last night, and I didn't sleep well. Back to taking them today but also struggled through work today, it was really difficult. And I have been struggling tonight, I have just taken 1 x 2mg diaz because...obviously...I am now worrying I won't sleep, like last night. Blooming vicious circle!
Well, it serves me right, not taking my meds for a couple of days. I must keep telling myself that its baby steps, counselling is going well and I am on meds, I need to pat myself on the back for getting back to work after being pretty bad, but not run before I can walk!
Oh I hope I sleep tonight. It scares me so much when I get these feelings, I hate it.
ladybird64
13-09-10, 21:34
Hi Heavenly
Try not to worry excessively hun, you know it's the "what-if" thoughts that are causing the problems at the moment..you have done so well, try not to let them get the upper hand.
If you are jittery later, why not try going into the chat room? :flowers:
Hi Heavenly
Try not to worry excessively hun, you know it's the "what-if" thoughts that are causing the problems at the moment..you have done so well, try not to let them get the upper hand.
If you are jittery later, why not try going into the chat room? :flowers:
I am hoping the Diaz will have kicked in later, but if it hasn't, I will venture, not been in there before! Thanks. :hugs:
I'm around, heavenly, if you need to talk. I know a little of what you're going through...diazepam for me too, today.
:hugs:
Thanks guys. :hugs: Well, thank God, the diazapam worked, I slept and when I woke this morning, I felt better. I feel a little whoozy this morning as I had the diaz last night and an Olanzapine this morning, but at least the fog has lifted. I hate that dark fog!! Why does it come over us for no apparent reason? Why am I ok today but wasn't yesterday? It confuses me so much.
Agnes - hope you are feeling ok today. xx
Got my letter from the hospital today, great timing...after being ill yesterday....not really up to coping with it!! Having a colonoscopy, as just before my panic attacks started, I was having a lot of tummy problems and the specialist I saw just wants to be on the safe side, anyway, the procedure is 1 October! :wacko: Bit too close for my liking, I may put it back to a later date. I know things are better not put off, but this anxiety/panic stuff I am coping with is fairly new to me, I don't feel strong enough yet to cope with something fairly stress inducing as a procedure.
HarleysGran
14-09-10, 15:36
Hi Heavenly, I can understand how you feel about the hospital procedure. I have an appointment on Thursday to have a Mammogram. If it was being done at the Hospital I would probably go, as to me, Hospital is a 'Safe Place', but they want me to go to the Mobile Screening Unit on Tesco's carpark! No way will I get there, I havn't been in our town centre for approximately 5 years. Maybe I'll put it off....or maybe I'll take extra diazapam (I'm on 5mg tablets, up to 3 a day, but am managing on 1 at the moment.) My Husband had the same procedure you're having done a few months ago & he was sedated. Is that not an option for you, or is it just getting there that bothers you? xx H.G.
Hi Heavenly, I can understand how you feel about the hospital procedure. I have an appointment on Thursday to have a Mammogram. If it was being done at the Hospital I would probably go, as to me, Hospital is a 'Safe Place', but they want me to go to the Mobile Screening Unit on Tesco's carpark! No way will I get there, I havn't been in our town centre for approximately 5 years. Maybe I'll put it off....or maybe I'll take extra diazapam (I'm on 5mg tablets, up to 3 a day, but am managing on 1 at the moment.) My Husband had the same procedure you're having done a few months ago & he was sedated. Is that not an option for you, or is it just getting there that bothers you? xx H.G.
Hi there, see how you go and how you feel, do what you feel you are up to. :hugs: I will take a diaz before I go and other half will be with me. Not sure what is bothering me, probably having a procedure, the unknown, I feel out of control etc....they will sedate me so its not the pain or discomfort I am bothered about. Just feel overly anxious at the slightest thing at the mo, so obviously a hospital procedure will send me off the richter scale! So will leave it a week, and then decide whether to put it back a bit. I've only been on meds about a month, this is all so new to me, and I am exhausted! xxx
Well, as if I wasn't anxious enough...the hospital have got it wrong. :wacko: Told me its a colonoscopy but it isn't, its a flexible sigmoidoscopy. The Prep stuff they sent me was for a colonoscopy so need to ring them again to make sure I have the right stuff. :wacko:
Have read up on it though, and it does seem to be a shorter procedure than the colonoscopy, so that is one good thing!! :yesyes:
Finally feeling back to 'normalish' today, after the past 2 days of living on my nerves. Its so exhausting, isn't it!
It can wear you out, Heavenly, yes. But I'm so glad you're feeling a little easier about the procedure :hugs: You can now get back to making me laugh :D
It can wear you out, Heavenly, yes. But I'm so glad you're feeling a little easier about the procedure :hugs: You can now get back to making me laugh :D
When I get some energy..possibly. :wacko::D After a good day yesterday, I just felt a bit dizzy and anxious. :wacko: Why oh why do I do this to myself? I am working half day today luckily. I think I have brought that on because other half is in London for 2 days, its made me panic. I have a Plan B, I am staying with best mate's mum tonight, bless her for offering! And I have counselling at 6pm, but have no plans from 12.30pm to 5pm and need to keep distracted! Maybe I will do an exercise dvd, I have a Davina McCall one, it is good...but she gets on my t*ts, so volume down so I don't have to hear her, and my Ipod full of 80's cheesy cr*p will go on. :D
Anyone up? Still can't shake this anxiety, its been all week now, longest its ever lasted. I have managed to go into work all week but the anxiety has lurked all week. Other half is fast asleep, I even took a 2mg diazapam, but here I am, still can't sleep. I want to take another diazapam but I am worried about taking 2 lots. Again, always worried about something!
When will it end? I feel so weak and can't see a light at the end of the tunnel, even though I have had good days since the attacks first started about 5 weeks ago. It feels so hopeless at the mo. I don't want to have to start relying on taking a Diaz to get to sleep!
Hello heavenly
I thought i was going to be up and around last night after a lousy day, but I did manage some sleep eventually. I'm so sorry that you weren't able to rest and I hope you are feeling a little easier now.
Please dont worry about the diazepam...I take them occasionally when things are particularly awful but they seem to be fairly easy to stop once the crisis is passed. And 2mg is a very low dose.
This time will pass, heavenly, I can promise you that.
With love and hugs :hugs:
Hello heavenly
I thought i was going to be up and around last night after a lousy day, but I did manage some sleep eventually. I'm so sorry that you weren't able to rest and I hope you are feeling a little easier now.
Please dont worry about the diazepam...I take them occasionally when things are particularly awful but they seem to be fairly easy to stop once the crisis is passed. And 2mg is a very low dose.
This time will pass, heavenly, I can promise you that.
With love and hugs :hugs:
Hey Agnes, I am glad you got a decent night's sleep. :hugs: I didn't take another Diaz in the end, finally dropped off around 3am then woke at 8.30am this morning. Feel a bit better, but totally exhausted. :wacko:
I really need to get to see my GP this week, I need to know if I can up what I am on (1 x 2.5mg Olanzapine a day) and if its ok to take 2 x 2.mg Diaz if its particularly bad. I really do not like pill popping but as my family keep telling me, its only been 5 weeks since I started to live with these 'episodes' and I need extra help at the mo. I know the counselling is really helping me but that is going to take time.
Just wish I could learn how to stop an episode when it starts, I try everything to stop it but haven't managed it yet, I just have to sit the whole horrible thing out and let it run its course. And when its a week long, well its just hideous. And so horrible at night time, I feel so lonely when it happens. :weep:
Today, I am ordering a Tai Chi dvd, I want to start doing that at home, hoping it will help.
Hope you have a calm day today. xx
alicegreen
18-09-10, 11:03
Hey Heavenly, Im so sorry to hear that things have been so difficult for you again, but likle you say, 5 weeks is early days. I suspect that a large part of things being worse this week is you appointment fopr the sigmoidoscopy coming through?
It may be worth you seeing your GP about the tablets, it is possible to have up to 20mg a day of olaxzapine. (like you I am on 2.5 which is a really low dose)
Tai chi sounds like a great idea, and actually you reminded me that was something I said I would look into myself! I am determined to change my whole lifestyle to be healthier, so Im not drinking (cant on olanzapine anyhow) and making sure I go to bed at a set time and get up at a set time etc. I also do relaxation every day. I am not sure how this will all fit in when I have to go back to work as I work nights and get very little sleep for 2 days out of every week.
Try and have a little rest today and also, try and get out for a walk if yiou can. I hope that today is a better one heavenly. x
Hey Heavenly, Im so sorry to hear that things have been so difficult for you again, but likle you say, 5 weeks is early days. I suspect that a large part of things being worse this week is you appointment fopr the sigmoidoscopy coming through?
It may be worth you seeing your GP about the tablets, it is possible to have up to 20mg a day of olaxzapine. (like you I am on 2.5 which is a really low dose)
Tai chi sounds like a great idea, and actually you reminded me that was something I said I would look into myself! I am determined to change my whole lifestyle to be healthier, so Im not drinking (cant on olanzapine anyhow) and making sure I go to bed at a set time and get up at a set time etc. I also do relaxation every day. I am not sure how this will all fit in when I have to go back to work as I work nights and get very little sleep for 2 days out of every week.
Try and have a little rest today and also, try and get out for a walk if yiou can. I hope that today is a better one heavenly. x
Hi there, thanks for the kind reply. :hugs: Walked into town with other half today, managed a sandwich, it is lovely and sunny. Back home now. I feel so tired, have taken 2 x 2.5mg Olanzapine every day for the past few days and a Diaz 2mg last night, so I am whoozy today.
That amount of meds didn't really make a difference the past few days so yes, need to see my GP. I can cope with a few hours or a day of it (even though its horrible), but its almost a week now and even today, I am still recovering from it. I can't cope with days of it on the trot. Its so dehabilitating. Other half said I should put the procedure off if I don't feel good nearer the time. I will see how I feel. I just want to be able to keep at bay, those anxious voices that go round my brain xx
Well done with the not drinking.:yesyes: I don't drink but I was a smoker, for over 15 years, but gave up 4 weeks ago. The thought of having any sort of stimulant just scares the whats*ts out of me so hasn't been too bad giving them up. I have just ordeded a Tai Chi dvd, but am going to re-join my gym, they do a Body Balance class which incorporates pilates, tai chi and yoga. I am hoping that will help me keeping the 'attacks' at bay.
Hope you have a calm day. xx
alicegreen
18-09-10, 18:55
yep, i used to do body balance myself and loved it. I was intending to do a class last Thursday to ease myself back in but it got cancelled due to the instructor being ill. Still, I have booked to go back to a body conditioning class on Monday, and have decided its kill or cure!:roflmao:
It has been lovely and sunny here in Kent today as well, it certainly helps!
Well, I slept from 9pm til 8.30am, without a Diaz as well! No surprise really, after 6 days of anxiety, I was totally exhausted. I am a bit better today! Still tired and whoozy, probably becaused I went from 1 Olanzapine to 2, these past few days...but a bit better, is a bit better! Need to take all the positives out of how I am today compared to yesterday. And hopefully, if I get to see my GP this week, hopefully I will have a plan, because if a biggy like that one comes along again, I need to be taking the right stuff, or taking the right amount because what I am on at the mo, didn't stop it.
Hope everyone is having a calm day today and thanks to everyone for the support. xxx
yep, i used to do body balance myself and loved it. I was intending to do a class last Thursday to ease myself back in but it got cancelled due to the instructor being ill. Still, I have booked to go back to a body conditioning class on Monday, and have decided its kill or cure!:roflmao:
It has been lovely and sunny here in Kent today as well, it certainly helps!
Well if I re-join David Lloyd gym, they have a body balance class and there are yoga classes as well. I have 3 afternoons off a week and I need distractions..healthy distractions as I find it better for me to be in company and/or doing something. For the moment though, I have ordered a Tai Chi dvd off Amazon, it got a lot of good reviews and at least I will have it to hand at home. xxx
sweet juicy
20-09-10, 09:16
Dont think too much friend,all will be going well !
Have found a Gentle Relaxation and Yoga class that runs on a Friday afternoon. Also saw my GP today, and, as I knew she would, she put my mind at ease. Explained to me why a one day episode ended up a 6 day one, several things one on top of the other (other half not being around overnight during that week, hospital procedure bumph arriving, my GP and my sis both being on holiday and not around to talk to (my immediate support network...apart from you lot on here..:winks:....) - so she wants to keep me on 2 x 2.5mg Olanzapine and doesn't feel the need to up it. She is very pleased with all the stuff I am doing, counselling, yoga, stopping smoking etc..she said it is all going in the right direction! Baby steps. :yesyes:
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