ian414
14-09-10, 10:44
Oh my god what is going on, when you just think things are getting better, here am i going to A&E for the 70th time yes 70th, why do you ask, well yesterday i couldnt stand it anymore worrying if i had Lung Cancer worrying why wont this chest infection go away been on 5 lots of Antibiotics, so what goes throuh your mind the weezing wont go still cough up green phlem, Well i went and i was more anxious there than being at home my pulse rate was 111 BP 141/83 but then im 42 so this could be normal for BP, why am i there why am i asking Qusestions Why do i sound like a Child asking the doctor Questions, Oh Doc do i have Cancer please tell me, for god sake im 42 not 10, well had chest Xray and Bloods done and you would not believe what the doctor told me, yes your right its clear.
Well once i knew that i was off heart rate had slowed down, couldnt wait to get home....But does this prove a point what the mind does to us makes us believe that we are really ill when we arnt, But wait why do i still believe im not right why am i still weezing do i have somthing else wrong well yes i might but what ever it is it can be sorted at least its not Cancer, why to we so fear the worst all the time? ive had so many tests and still think im diying of somthing, Think Ian Think Hard.....Ok lets go back 1 year ok to August 2009 19, now on this day my mum passed away from ovarian cancer now this was shuch a shock to me as my mum was my everything my life my rock, i was strong i had to be as im 1 of 2 brothers im the youngest but i was so close to my mum and to see my mum go as quick as she did well it must of done somthing to me as i become unweel in the November 2009, yes a massive panic attack, and thats what started me off with the Anxitey, ive had everything, but the worst is the heart racing all the tiime everyday, and i mean it will go to 141 beats a min so you can see why im not wnating to understand a doctor, ive loast weight i look Gaunt in the face, froom 11 stone down to 9 and a half stone, and believe me i eat everyday and can i put the weight on can i hell, well i dont want to bore you all so im going to leave now but please understand Anxitey is the worst thing ive ever had i would rather have an illness than this, God Bless you all Ian
Well once i knew that i was off heart rate had slowed down, couldnt wait to get home....But does this prove a point what the mind does to us makes us believe that we are really ill when we arnt, But wait why do i still believe im not right why am i still weezing do i have somthing else wrong well yes i might but what ever it is it can be sorted at least its not Cancer, why to we so fear the worst all the time? ive had so many tests and still think im diying of somthing, Think Ian Think Hard.....Ok lets go back 1 year ok to August 2009 19, now on this day my mum passed away from ovarian cancer now this was shuch a shock to me as my mum was my everything my life my rock, i was strong i had to be as im 1 of 2 brothers im the youngest but i was so close to my mum and to see my mum go as quick as she did well it must of done somthing to me as i become unweel in the November 2009, yes a massive panic attack, and thats what started me off with the Anxitey, ive had everything, but the worst is the heart racing all the tiime everyday, and i mean it will go to 141 beats a min so you can see why im not wnating to understand a doctor, ive loast weight i look Gaunt in the face, froom 11 stone down to 9 and a half stone, and believe me i eat everyday and can i put the weight on can i hell, well i dont want to bore you all so im going to leave now but please understand Anxitey is the worst thing ive ever had i would rather have an illness than this, God Bless you all Ian