ladybird64
15-09-10, 11:22
Hi all. :)
I was debating whether or not to put a post on here but decided to, just in case it helps anyone else who suffers from PA's or Agoraphobia.
I am not setting myself goals any more, a very personal decision, but I have decided that to set goals means I am in a constant battle with something..I don't want to give the PA's or Agora any of my attention any more. Well..not too much anyway..:winks:
Yesterday I went with my two daughters to the Science Museum in London (I live in London) a very large, noisy, crowded scary building full of glass. Last time I was there, about 10 years ago, I had a massive PA which terrified me so much I was sure I wouldn't go back.
I did go, was nervous but then to be nervous is normal when you have had a bad experience before! The streets surrounding the museum also used to freak me out, big wide streets with loads of traffic and tourists :ohmy:
Well, it was good. I looked at exhibits, didn't try to rush cos I was enjoying looking at the exhibits, had a PA on the first floor (glass balcony looking straight down to the floor below, sweated, shook a lot, went out side the gallery to sit down and gather my thoughts for 30 seconds then went back in again.
I knew that the time to strike back is when I had escaped the scary situation which is why I went back in..it takes the power of the PA away!
Yep I still shook a bit and sweated like I had run a marathon but what the heck..next time I go will have the memory of being a bit nervous but brushing it aside.
We then went on to the Natural History museum and the Victoria and Albert Museum..all in all we were there from 10:30min the morning until 5 in the afternoon, we then had to get 3 buses to get home.
My feet were killing me but that is part of a normal day out! :D
I am slowly reclaiming my life back, please never lose hope that you can do the same. :hugs:
I was debating whether or not to put a post on here but decided to, just in case it helps anyone else who suffers from PA's or Agoraphobia.
I am not setting myself goals any more, a very personal decision, but I have decided that to set goals means I am in a constant battle with something..I don't want to give the PA's or Agora any of my attention any more. Well..not too much anyway..:winks:
Yesterday I went with my two daughters to the Science Museum in London (I live in London) a very large, noisy, crowded scary building full of glass. Last time I was there, about 10 years ago, I had a massive PA which terrified me so much I was sure I wouldn't go back.
I did go, was nervous but then to be nervous is normal when you have had a bad experience before! The streets surrounding the museum also used to freak me out, big wide streets with loads of traffic and tourists :ohmy:
Well, it was good. I looked at exhibits, didn't try to rush cos I was enjoying looking at the exhibits, had a PA on the first floor (glass balcony looking straight down to the floor below, sweated, shook a lot, went out side the gallery to sit down and gather my thoughts for 30 seconds then went back in again.
I knew that the time to strike back is when I had escaped the scary situation which is why I went back in..it takes the power of the PA away!
Yep I still shook a bit and sweated like I had run a marathon but what the heck..next time I go will have the memory of being a bit nervous but brushing it aside.
We then went on to the Natural History museum and the Victoria and Albert Museum..all in all we were there from 10:30min the morning until 5 in the afternoon, we then had to get 3 buses to get home.
My feet were killing me but that is part of a normal day out! :D
I am slowly reclaiming my life back, please never lose hope that you can do the same. :hugs: