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JFlower
17-09-10, 15:22
Or at least that was the plan.

I've had a few good days so decided I would start this Saturday when my hubs is about. Of course I'm nervous about the side effects but have been thinking it's a couple of weeks for long term gain.

Bad day today and I'm now starting to 'wuss' out :blush: I don't want to take them, I don't want the weird side effects of starting but I do need some help.

For everyone else it's so easy for them to tell me to just take it but it's not for me. Why don't they get that?

I wish I'd never stopped in the first place :weep:

suzy-sue
17-09-10, 16:14
I can understand you there Flower ..It sometimes worries me thinking when I finlly get off them I might one day have to go through it all again .But if I do I do ...You did it once ,and you will get through it all .Think of the end result .Its got to be worth it ..Try starting on 5mg ,it wont be so hard .Slowly does it .You may not feel so bad this time anyway ,our body chemistry changes all the time .This has an important effect on how we react to medications .All the best and dont forget ,you will get plenty of support to help you through those first few weeks .Luv Sue x:hugs:

KevsHoping
17-09-10, 16:58
JFlower - you wished you had never stopped in the first place. I wish I had never started. I am 3 1/2 weeks in and [today] at hell's door. I have just been away to Greece on hols with my partner for 11 days. Can't even remember being on holiday as nothing was an enjoyment.

Anxiety is high and I am shaking a bit too much but looking forward (ARRRRGGGHHHH) to some kind of respite from what is happening. I hate it but will keep on hoping for the light at the end of the tunnel.

Sorry to rant but I just hope I can provide some kind of help and for you to understand you are really not alone.

Kevxx

JFlower
17-09-10, 17:06
Thanks Kev

I'm sorry you're having a rough time but you will get there.

I just don't know how I'm going to face taking that first tablet. Terrified.

Suzy - thank you. I know it works for me, just need to remember that

steveo1980
17-09-10, 20:16
Good luck JFlower - try 5mg to start off easily.

Kev - what does are you on? Maybe too high and increased anxiety from the Cit.

shaz14
17-09-10, 20:26
Hi JFlower.
I've never posted on here before but have been reading posts for months trying to find the courage to re-start taking Citalopram. After reading yours I wanted to say I've been going through the same fear and wanted to offer you some support. I've been off Citalopram for 18 months whilst I had my 1st (and probably last) baby. I have been trying now for 10 months to start taking them again as things are so bad, mentally and physically. I've been battling on thinking that maybe I could do it without the medication as I was so scared of the side effects again.
However I've got to the point where I can't carry on feeling like this anymore. It's not fair on my loved ones either. They cannot understand why I can't put a tiny pill in my mouth which will most likely make me feel better and enabled me to have a life once before!!
So after all these months of trying I finally took the first one 3 days ago.....
....and wish I'd done it months ago! Nothing terrible happened! I made sure that my Mum and Husband were around all day in case of any awful side effects and that helped me to swallow it. Do you have people around you that you can lean on if you need to?
So 3 days along and I've no change yet but I've done the hardest part..taking the first one. And I feel so proud of myself :) Kept telling myself that I deserve to feel better, that my family deserve better from me. If i was diabetic I would take insulin without a second thought!
I understand how hard it is for you but I hope this gives you some help/encouragement with your decision.

JFlower
17-09-10, 20:47
Thank you both.

Shaz, your post helped me a lot. I also stopped because I had a baby and thought I could do this 'alone'. I'm so pleased it's going well, really hoping tomorrow will bring the same for me.

My husband and daughter are going to be with me tomorrow. Plan is to have an early morning family swim then come back and take it.

shaz14
17-09-10, 21:19
Good luck. I was prescibed 20mg but have decided to just take 10mg for a couple of weeks and then go back to docs if need to increase. Remember they have already been in your system and your body coped fine with them before.
And once you have taken it, keep yourself busy with things even if it's just housework chores! Don't allow your mind to start imagining side effects that aren't there. Keep yourself busy and positive. And hey, we are amazing women, we have been through childbirth!!! Be thinking of you tomorrow.

jacko296
18-09-10, 08:07
Hi Shaz and J Flower....just thought id say that i took my first tablet 4days and am so chuffed with myself...after agonising over re-taking them for 6 months!..I have been staring at the box for that long..thinking will i ?//wont i?

Anyway..feel better already..not sure if its psychostmatic..but dont care..i would agree with everyone else J..and start small and build your way up...all the best and keep us posted...theres support here either way.

J:)

JFlower
18-09-10, 08:57
Well I took my first tablet (10mg) today. Tried not to think about it and just popped it down!

I am talking myself round that today is going to be a good day, going to keep busy but reminding myself I took this for over 3 years and it works.

:)

KevsHoping
18-09-10, 14:51
JFlower - well done ! :) I stop thinking about taking it now - I just go to the cupboard in the kitchen, get the little bugger out of the box at around 8PM and swallow it down. Easy. Have to do it so has to be done. I then pick up a magazine or tune intop something good on the telly to take my mind off the fact that I have to take them.

Steve - I am on 20mg but since my last post (when I was in the middle of a bit of a panic attack), actually feel quite a lot better today and with hindsight and a clearer mind - pretty good actually - in comparison!

JFlower - see - it's not all bad.

Kevxx

steveo1980
18-09-10, 19:08
JFlower - well done ! :) I stop thinking about taking it now - I just go to the cupboard in the kitchen, get the little bugger out of the box at around 8PM and swallow it down. Easy. Have to do it so has to be done. I then pick up a magazine or tune intop something good on the telly to take my mind off the fact that I have to take them.

Steve - I am on 20mg but since my last post (when I was in the middle of a bit of a panic attack), actually feel quite a lot better today and with hindsight and a clearer mind - pretty good actually - in comparison!

JFlower - see - it's not all bad.

Kevxx

Great news Kev!

JFlower
20-09-10, 17:27
Not having a great day today, probably because it was the first day at work on it.

Just feeling a little 'off', wanted to run home this morning from work because I was feeling so anxious but managed to push through it

steveo1980
20-09-10, 19:21
Not having a great day today, probably because it was the first day at work on it.

Just feeling a little 'off', wanted to run home this morning from work because I was feeling so anxious but managed to push through it

Well done for sticking it out. You'll get there :)

shaz14
22-09-10, 11:31
Hi again
Just wondering how you are getting on with the 10mg Citalopram? I'm on day 8 now with no change as yet, still feeling dreadful. Doctor suggested I up the dose to 20mg as soon as possible.

jack00
22-09-10, 20:34
Hi,

I thought I'd join this thread as I took my first one today. I was a bit nervous last night but read some of the threads on here which really encouraged me - of course the survival guide (the writer should get an OBE). I've never been on medication before, but I've been miserable and anxious for 20 or 30 years so it has to be worth a try!

Not going badly - feeling drowsy and headachy (like the start of a cold!), but really optimistic that it's going to make a difference. My GP was so kind and understanding and took the time to talk me through it. Fingers crossed!

shaz14
22-09-10, 20:51
Good luck Jack. Sometimes you just feel like you've battled long enough on your own and anything is worth a try. This afternoon/evening is the 1st time in months that I've felt a little better though so maybe I'm turning a corner at long last :)

As for side effects, I'm not sure if my symptoms are just down to my anxiety or that I've developed a cold this last week or actual side effects of the meds or a mixture of all 3!!!

Got to keep going though and thinking positively.

JFlower
23-09-10, 16:21
How are you both doing on it now?

I've been up and down - two really good days, day three was shaky - I had a slight anxiety attack at work and wanted to run away but stuck with it. A couple of headaches follwed by insomnia. Day 4 was worse again (felt completely sick and as though I was going to throw up and headaches). Past two days have been better, I think it's actually starting to kick in which is great :)

jack00
26-09-10, 08:24
Hi,

Thanks for asking JF - feeling quite good physically. I was feeling drowsy during the week at work and have had a couple of headaches; but otherwise I'm fine. I'm meant to be taking just 10mg for the first week so will give it until next weekend to increase to 20mg.

I just want to recover! So of course I know there are all sorts of non-medicinal things I can do in the meantime. Really hope everything comes together.