Solocosmo
21-09-10, 21:26
A very fond hello to everyone!
I'm a 27 year old girl from Portugal, and I've spent the last year of my otherwise carefree life in a wave of deep despair associated with the need of going to the bathroom. It strikes me as really odd, since I usually was a lazy "pee-er" and only went once or twice a day.
Initially I thought bladder infection, and I've been trough several treatments. If it was in the beggining, now its gone, but the feeling persists. If there is not a bathroom in clear acess, I will sweat, my heart pounds, my legs loose all strenght, and I think of nothing else except: "You wont make it, you need to go NOW, oh my god the humilliation."
I avoid going into long trips, wether by car or public transportation, I avoid music festivals and lots of other things that used to make me happy, simply because I know bathroom acess will be hard.
Today was my first day at college, and I left in the middle of a class running to the bathroom, sure that this is it, this is the time I wont be able to hold it in. I didnt have the nerve to go back in, and instead I came home feeling very small and very sad.
I have to tell you I damn near cried when I found this website, about an hour ago. From what I've been reading I think the lot of you knows exactly how I feel.
I didnt know there where others. Thank you for helping me feel not so alone in this poisoned mind.
:bighug1:
I'm a 27 year old girl from Portugal, and I've spent the last year of my otherwise carefree life in a wave of deep despair associated with the need of going to the bathroom. It strikes me as really odd, since I usually was a lazy "pee-er" and only went once or twice a day.
Initially I thought bladder infection, and I've been trough several treatments. If it was in the beggining, now its gone, but the feeling persists. If there is not a bathroom in clear acess, I will sweat, my heart pounds, my legs loose all strenght, and I think of nothing else except: "You wont make it, you need to go NOW, oh my god the humilliation."
I avoid going into long trips, wether by car or public transportation, I avoid music festivals and lots of other things that used to make me happy, simply because I know bathroom acess will be hard.
Today was my first day at college, and I left in the middle of a class running to the bathroom, sure that this is it, this is the time I wont be able to hold it in. I didnt have the nerve to go back in, and instead I came home feeling very small and very sad.
I have to tell you I damn near cried when I found this website, about an hour ago. From what I've been reading I think the lot of you knows exactly how I feel.
I didnt know there where others. Thank you for helping me feel not so alone in this poisoned mind.
:bighug1: