happyone
22-09-10, 11:45
My eldest went up to the park with a friend of hers yesterday. Before she went I had been badly bothered by IBS and had been doubled up in pain. Her dad came in and I said she could go out.
Whilst she was out, she sent me a text saying "Mum, are you dying or something?" Obviously I replkied right away saying I just had a tummy pain and I intended her to be looking after me when I was 95!
What had happened is, a couple of days previous, she had sent me a wee smiley face and I had replied saying I loved her loads and loads. She hadn't got that message until she was at the park and combined with my tummy pain.....she thought I was dying.
When she got home, she told me she felt sick when she got the message.
It reminded me of my adolescence. I used to think my mum was going to kill herself. (this was cos of things she said and her being very drunk though) and I used to scream and cry outside the bathroom door. Then when that fear passed, I used to think she was going to kill herself accidentally when she was drunk, or my dad would kill her. My anxiety used to be so high it was awful.
My anxiety is still sky high at times and it hurts to think my daughter is inheriting that and that my mental health is adding to it. I know this was about a physical problem but all the mental health stuff must have contributed.
I feel so crap thinking she is going to go through life like me.....even though she doesn't have the drunken parent to put up with though.
Happyone
xx
Whilst she was out, she sent me a text saying "Mum, are you dying or something?" Obviously I replkied right away saying I just had a tummy pain and I intended her to be looking after me when I was 95!
What had happened is, a couple of days previous, she had sent me a wee smiley face and I had replied saying I loved her loads and loads. She hadn't got that message until she was at the park and combined with my tummy pain.....she thought I was dying.
When she got home, she told me she felt sick when she got the message.
It reminded me of my adolescence. I used to think my mum was going to kill herself. (this was cos of things she said and her being very drunk though) and I used to scream and cry outside the bathroom door. Then when that fear passed, I used to think she was going to kill herself accidentally when she was drunk, or my dad would kill her. My anxiety used to be so high it was awful.
My anxiety is still sky high at times and it hurts to think my daughter is inheriting that and that my mental health is adding to it. I know this was about a physical problem but all the mental health stuff must have contributed.
I feel so crap thinking she is going to go through life like me.....even though she doesn't have the drunken parent to put up with though.
Happyone
xx