michellebelle
22-09-10, 18:31
Last Monday night I had got tired of the slight pain in my left arm and stupidly googled it. Google told me I was likely having a heart attack or about to have one. I tried not think about it very much but it was impossible and got myself into such a state I had a massive panic attack which at the the time I was thinking this is it it's here. I dialled 999 and got told after a check of my sats and such that I was having a panic attack.
I felt like a fool for wasting their time but I also would not have left it to chance.
I have 6 year old little girl (I'm a single mum) and since Monday I have developed a fear of death or dying in my sleep and her finding me in the morning to the point where I can not sleep.
The only complaints I had before my first panic attack was the pain in my left arm and in my opinion over the last few weeks the bue veins in my body have become more visible. I have also been more tired.
I have a history of depression and anxiety that I thought I had tackled in April of this year but I clearly was very wrong.
The Tuesday after I had my first PA I had an even larger one and was so scared again I called 999. They took my BP 130/80 during the attack and they also did a 6 lead and 12 lead ECG. Both recorded 'normal sinus rhythm.
I have had several more panic attacks since then despite a trip to the hospital where a doc told me I was fine and my sats were good. my pulse and BP is healthy but I was still not convinced. I am worrying constantly that they are wrong and I will die in my sleep leaving my little girl all alone.
I am overweight but have dropped a stone in 9 days due to anxiety.
I plan to continue to do this.
I am asthmatic.
I quit smoking 8 weeks ago.
Quit drinking at the same time too.
I have done drugs in my teens but not for a very long time.
I am 27 years old and I want my life back and for this fear to stop eating away at me.
I can't shake the feeling that something is wrong. Since then my body seems to have also developed more unusual symptoms.
Neck pain.
Upper back pain.
Arm pain (mostly left, sometimes right)
Headaches.
Toothache )very mild and not constant)
face pain on right side (again mild and not constant)
I feel weak tired, itchy, generally achy.
I also keep getting sensations of warmth in different parts of my body that only last a few seconds.
I guess I just want some reassurance that these are normal in anxiety and that my ECG and the fact Im still alive and my arm has been hurting for a while. I just dont want to die.
I can't leave my little girl.
I felt like a fool for wasting their time but I also would not have left it to chance.
I have 6 year old little girl (I'm a single mum) and since Monday I have developed a fear of death or dying in my sleep and her finding me in the morning to the point where I can not sleep.
The only complaints I had before my first panic attack was the pain in my left arm and in my opinion over the last few weeks the bue veins in my body have become more visible. I have also been more tired.
I have a history of depression and anxiety that I thought I had tackled in April of this year but I clearly was very wrong.
The Tuesday after I had my first PA I had an even larger one and was so scared again I called 999. They took my BP 130/80 during the attack and they also did a 6 lead and 12 lead ECG. Both recorded 'normal sinus rhythm.
I have had several more panic attacks since then despite a trip to the hospital where a doc told me I was fine and my sats were good. my pulse and BP is healthy but I was still not convinced. I am worrying constantly that they are wrong and I will die in my sleep leaving my little girl all alone.
I am overweight but have dropped a stone in 9 days due to anxiety.
I plan to continue to do this.
I am asthmatic.
I quit smoking 8 weeks ago.
Quit drinking at the same time too.
I have done drugs in my teens but not for a very long time.
I am 27 years old and I want my life back and for this fear to stop eating away at me.
I can't shake the feeling that something is wrong. Since then my body seems to have also developed more unusual symptoms.
Neck pain.
Upper back pain.
Arm pain (mostly left, sometimes right)
Headaches.
Toothache )very mild and not constant)
face pain on right side (again mild and not constant)
I feel weak tired, itchy, generally achy.
I also keep getting sensations of warmth in different parts of my body that only last a few seconds.
I guess I just want some reassurance that these are normal in anxiety and that my ECG and the fact Im still alive and my arm has been hurting for a while. I just dont want to die.
I can't leave my little girl.