Nanerpus
25-09-10, 13:07
It's been a tough summer. But I'm in my worst state of mind ever right now.
This spring, I went in to the eye doctors because I have a pinquecula (glob of protein/fat from sun damage - harmless) in each eye, and sometimes it gets inflamed and I need steroid drops to clear it up.
Now, come fall, both my eyes are red for some reason so I go back in. I get put on the drop again to clear it up, and he says it's "episcleritis" - inflammation of the eye, again, not a huge deal, but he says, "Since you've been in a few times I'd like to do some blood tests to rule out any autoimmune diseases that could point to chronic inflammation." PANIC.
So after doing the blood tests, what do I do? I go home and google. I found out that I can have MS, Scleroderma, Sarcoidosis, Lupus, RA, and all sorts of other autoimmune diseases. My aunt has Scleroderma and has a horribly difficult life. So of course now I think I'm going to get it. I even have some symptoms (itchiness sometimes that I've been told was anxiety since it comes and goes, Raynauds (which when I google that says I have a risk of getting an autoimmune disease ANYWAYS), and the eye inflammation).
I don't find out my tests results until Tuesday, and in the meanwhile I am FREAKING out, I can't sleep, I can't breathe, my heart is pounding. I'm just sure the tests are going to come back abnormal and I'm going to be referrered to a hematologist and find out I have something horrible. It just makes sense to me, I can connect all the dots in my head to scleroderma, ra, something horrible like that. I'm so upset.
The doctor told me they've seen a ton of people in for fall allergies, and not to go home and worry but I've been in several times for eye inflammation and I just KNOW it's linked to some autoimmune disease, especially after researching on the internet and knowing what I already have (Raynaud's syndrome, since I was little - it runs in my family too).
Any words of wisdom until I get my tests results back? I'm so scared. I haven't slept since my appointment 3 days ago and I keep having this upcoming appointment play out in my head, him telling me I have had high levels in my markers for these autoimmune diseases.
My husband thinks I'm just "sensitive" and that I'm fine, because I do feel great, and outwardly there's not a whole lot to point to that could be wrong. But I read that sometimes it takes years for those illness to really develop but they are still THERE LURKING.
This spring, I went in to the eye doctors because I have a pinquecula (glob of protein/fat from sun damage - harmless) in each eye, and sometimes it gets inflamed and I need steroid drops to clear it up.
Now, come fall, both my eyes are red for some reason so I go back in. I get put on the drop again to clear it up, and he says it's "episcleritis" - inflammation of the eye, again, not a huge deal, but he says, "Since you've been in a few times I'd like to do some blood tests to rule out any autoimmune diseases that could point to chronic inflammation." PANIC.
So after doing the blood tests, what do I do? I go home and google. I found out that I can have MS, Scleroderma, Sarcoidosis, Lupus, RA, and all sorts of other autoimmune diseases. My aunt has Scleroderma and has a horribly difficult life. So of course now I think I'm going to get it. I even have some symptoms (itchiness sometimes that I've been told was anxiety since it comes and goes, Raynauds (which when I google that says I have a risk of getting an autoimmune disease ANYWAYS), and the eye inflammation).
I don't find out my tests results until Tuesday, and in the meanwhile I am FREAKING out, I can't sleep, I can't breathe, my heart is pounding. I'm just sure the tests are going to come back abnormal and I'm going to be referrered to a hematologist and find out I have something horrible. It just makes sense to me, I can connect all the dots in my head to scleroderma, ra, something horrible like that. I'm so upset.
The doctor told me they've seen a ton of people in for fall allergies, and not to go home and worry but I've been in several times for eye inflammation and I just KNOW it's linked to some autoimmune disease, especially after researching on the internet and knowing what I already have (Raynaud's syndrome, since I was little - it runs in my family too).
Any words of wisdom until I get my tests results back? I'm so scared. I haven't slept since my appointment 3 days ago and I keep having this upcoming appointment play out in my head, him telling me I have had high levels in my markers for these autoimmune diseases.
My husband thinks I'm just "sensitive" and that I'm fine, because I do feel great, and outwardly there's not a whole lot to point to that could be wrong. But I read that sometimes it takes years for those illness to really develop but they are still THERE LURKING.