jaded jean
30-09-10, 07:31
After being off work for 8 months I started back nearly 3 months ago. I work so hard at dong everything right, I dont cut corners I ensure evrything is right-to the letter. it is mentally exhausting as it stays with me when I finish for the day. I get told that I am doing my work extremely fast as the previous girl could not cope saying there wasnt enought time to do everything. I am 20 odd years older than her by the way. I have a forceful personality at times so I really push myself to get things done
, when I have annual leave tho the anxiety is there bang!! as soon as I wake up its the continous thoughts -silly thoughts and it drives me mad sometimes I get upset as it wont stop , Ithought being back at work my mind would retain relevant information but I get all jumbled things going thru my head its awful,why is this still happening does anyone know?? when I was off work I could accept it even then that I was just sitting in front of the tv and taking in rubbish,But why is it still continuing?? I have had a few counselling sessions but it seemed very weak and I didnt think I was getting anywhere. I am fully aware of the huge waiting list for cbt so I dont know what other avenue to go down.
Jean:shrug::shrug:
, when I have annual leave tho the anxiety is there bang!! as soon as I wake up its the continous thoughts -silly thoughts and it drives me mad sometimes I get upset as it wont stop , Ithought being back at work my mind would retain relevant information but I get all jumbled things going thru my head its awful,why is this still happening does anyone know?? when I was off work I could accept it even then that I was just sitting in front of the tv and taking in rubbish,But why is it still continuing?? I have had a few counselling sessions but it seemed very weak and I didnt think I was getting anywhere. I am fully aware of the huge waiting list for cbt so I dont know what other avenue to go down.
Jean:shrug::shrug: