JAYQ
02-10-10, 00:34
Ok well maybe this a good sign that it is after all anxiety that is taking me over. I can be feeling dreadful, tightness of breathing, weakness, just an overall ill feeling, tired etc and as soon as i get to the gym run my 2 miles then lift for almost 2 hours i feel great, well besides being worn out from the cardio and weight lifting lol.
But the entire time i am working out i am feeling fine and normal. Some days are so bad before i go to work out i really have to convince myself to workout because i feel so not right inside me and ill. Sometimes as bad as feeling like i need to go to hospital again, but when i do decide to go to gym i feel lots better. Of course sometimes when i am done and come back home later on i will start to feel miserable again but i guess its because gym is like my only happiness right now which is sad, because i have noone else and my family lives thousands of miles away. Living single and alone makes it worse i guess and when i am at the gym i dont know i guess it lifts my spirts and i like getting ripped lol.
Anyway is there anyone else out there that feels the same way? Dreadful and ill feeling but when they exercise they feel good? Is that really an anxiety a** kicker? lol I just wish that it would stay away for good is all :(
But the entire time i am working out i am feeling fine and normal. Some days are so bad before i go to work out i really have to convince myself to workout because i feel so not right inside me and ill. Sometimes as bad as feeling like i need to go to hospital again, but when i do decide to go to gym i feel lots better. Of course sometimes when i am done and come back home later on i will start to feel miserable again but i guess its because gym is like my only happiness right now which is sad, because i have noone else and my family lives thousands of miles away. Living single and alone makes it worse i guess and when i am at the gym i dont know i guess it lifts my spirts and i like getting ripped lol.
Anyway is there anyone else out there that feels the same way? Dreadful and ill feeling but when they exercise they feel good? Is that really an anxiety a** kicker? lol I just wish that it would stay away for good is all :(