looloo
04-10-10, 15:54
I could cry finding this site and I wish i had found it 4 years ago when my panic attacks started!
Am a 37 year old single mum of two and although I have fantastic, supportive family and friends, I feel so incredibly guilty, weak and worthless that my head and attacks rule me!
Mine always always come when i am driving. I have had four in the last week and now feel so scared and unable to get my daughter to school and drive to my new job. i just dont know what to do with myself!
I think about routes, I build myself up hours, days before I go anywhere! I convince myself into an attack before i even have one, is that normal?? I worry that I am a danger to others on the road as when panic kicks in its almost like I am driving drunk and I feel like I am fighting to steer, then the shakes kick in and I cant breathe so i stop, feel sick, cry, have to get out of the car and uncontrollable leg and arm shaking!
Have spent the whole day crying as I just cant see a way out
Been to docs who has put me on short term course of diazepam, booked for hypnotherapy tomorrow!
I just keep beating myself up over it at the moment, i feel like I am letting my kids down!
But its so nice to blurt out all of this to people who hopefully get me!
I would be so grateful to here or chat to anyone and I am reading many threads, all of which are making me cry again! A wreck today!
Loo x
Am a 37 year old single mum of two and although I have fantastic, supportive family and friends, I feel so incredibly guilty, weak and worthless that my head and attacks rule me!
Mine always always come when i am driving. I have had four in the last week and now feel so scared and unable to get my daughter to school and drive to my new job. i just dont know what to do with myself!
I think about routes, I build myself up hours, days before I go anywhere! I convince myself into an attack before i even have one, is that normal?? I worry that I am a danger to others on the road as when panic kicks in its almost like I am driving drunk and I feel like I am fighting to steer, then the shakes kick in and I cant breathe so i stop, feel sick, cry, have to get out of the car and uncontrollable leg and arm shaking!
Have spent the whole day crying as I just cant see a way out
Been to docs who has put me on short term course of diazepam, booked for hypnotherapy tomorrow!
I just keep beating myself up over it at the moment, i feel like I am letting my kids down!
But its so nice to blurt out all of this to people who hopefully get me!
I would be so grateful to here or chat to anyone and I am reading many threads, all of which are making me cry again! A wreck today!
Loo x