GreyGirl
04-10-10, 16:44
Hello,i am writting here and i am so confuised and scared.
I am diagnosed with anxiety,panic disorder and ocd.
I feel as i am dreaming all the time,and i have depersonalization and derealization. I feel my mind is blocked and i can't think clearly.
As i can think clear with one part of my brain and with other i can't.
I was trying to fall asleep today,but i couldn't. While i was trying i felt into little dream,and my mind said me as...don't get ill,u will get baby.
I get out from bed so frightnen,i didn't know what to do. I am 18 year old virgin and why i had this random thought as i am pregnant? I know this is not normal thought. So i analize my thoughts and i realized there is something that is not ok with my brain.
Then i remembered that my aunt has schizophrenia and she was thinking that she had baby that she hasn't and similar bizzare thoughts.
Now i know schizophrenia is genetic so i am so afraid. What if i don't think normal? what if i am already mentally ill? what if my life is destroyed?
Why i had that random thought? So wierd. Don't get me wrong i know it's not real,but why my brain say this to me? Is this early sign of schizophrenia? PLS LET ME KNOW! I don't wanna live like this anymore:(
I am diagnosed with anxiety,panic disorder and ocd.
I feel as i am dreaming all the time,and i have depersonalization and derealization. I feel my mind is blocked and i can't think clearly.
As i can think clear with one part of my brain and with other i can't.
I was trying to fall asleep today,but i couldn't. While i was trying i felt into little dream,and my mind said me as...don't get ill,u will get baby.
I get out from bed so frightnen,i didn't know what to do. I am 18 year old virgin and why i had this random thought as i am pregnant? I know this is not normal thought. So i analize my thoughts and i realized there is something that is not ok with my brain.
Then i remembered that my aunt has schizophrenia and she was thinking that she had baby that she hasn't and similar bizzare thoughts.
Now i know schizophrenia is genetic so i am so afraid. What if i don't think normal? what if i am already mentally ill? what if my life is destroyed?
Why i had that random thought? So wierd. Don't get me wrong i know it's not real,but why my brain say this to me? Is this early sign of schizophrenia? PLS LET ME KNOW! I don't wanna live like this anymore:(