phil06
06-10-10, 01:37
Since my latest wave of anxiety this year I've had lots of strange thoughts and feelings like anxiety has changed me. When I first got a bad anxiety attack and went to the doctors for weeks after it I worried I'd died and I was living a dream. Sometimes when I'm out I just feel I'm going mad and it feels real. I've had awful dreams which seem so real too. I have become desperate for reassurance at times too. There's been moments Ive been that angry and ranted so much I worry it's some how out of character. A bit of fear of going mad/personality change worry all in one.
I don't feel the same person too. I feel I've died, gone mad 20 times, had every illness all in a few months..it's hard to explain. The anxiety spells and thoughts seem different and more fearful than previous experiences as I've had all different symptoms this time compared to the last ones I had.
But my worry is all this anxiety has made me a bit loopy in the head or something? Plus at times I get waves of depersonalization and nothing feels real. Sometimes it feels better other times it feels worse..today I worried I'd nope cope if it was not anxiety and if it was health and it worries me a bit. I have quite a big fear of losing control lots of adrenaline there's moments over the last few months I've worked myself into a point where I felt I've gone mad..and it's not until after it some normality comes back. At times I feel I'm away with the fairies or my mind is distant too?
I can't get the cause out my head though my second driving test failure even though I've had more since. Could be stopping me fully recovering..I don't 100% believe it's all anxiety either I'm suffering..I know i suffer it though.. but this anxiety has been like a chapter for me..but this sensation of feeling everything intense is almost like an over stimulated set of emotions as the other day I thought I've felt this feeling more mild before..like some days you can feel weird or deja vu but not worry...but anxiety over stimulates the feeling could that be the case? I'd like to think I am normal as I work and so on...but I worry I am mad, or going mad.. :ohmy: anybody had this worry and feeling before?
I don't feel the same person too. I feel I've died, gone mad 20 times, had every illness all in a few months..it's hard to explain. The anxiety spells and thoughts seem different and more fearful than previous experiences as I've had all different symptoms this time compared to the last ones I had.
But my worry is all this anxiety has made me a bit loopy in the head or something? Plus at times I get waves of depersonalization and nothing feels real. Sometimes it feels better other times it feels worse..today I worried I'd nope cope if it was not anxiety and if it was health and it worries me a bit. I have quite a big fear of losing control lots of adrenaline there's moments over the last few months I've worked myself into a point where I felt I've gone mad..and it's not until after it some normality comes back. At times I feel I'm away with the fairies or my mind is distant too?
I can't get the cause out my head though my second driving test failure even though I've had more since. Could be stopping me fully recovering..I don't 100% believe it's all anxiety either I'm suffering..I know i suffer it though.. but this anxiety has been like a chapter for me..but this sensation of feeling everything intense is almost like an over stimulated set of emotions as the other day I thought I've felt this feeling more mild before..like some days you can feel weird or deja vu but not worry...but anxiety over stimulates the feeling could that be the case? I'd like to think I am normal as I work and so on...but I worry I am mad, or going mad.. :ohmy: anybody had this worry and feeling before?