MOJO
06-10-10, 10:01
Hello, I'm having a setback at the moment. I'm so scared and I don't know how to stop it. The fear of going back to how I was for the last 2 years is awful. I have been making good progress for the last 6 months or so. Felt I had my life back. Not perfect, still felt anxious most days at some point but nothing like I had been. I could go out and about without too much trouble. Managed a holiday and trips to see my daughters (a short flight away) on my own.
I know what has started this off again but don't know how to deal with it. My hubbie has a really bad knee problem which means he can hardly walk most of the time. This has gone on for 8 weeks now and doctors are SO slow in getting him referred to a specialist. I have had to do everything for him. Basically turned into his nurse. He hates not working and being stuck in the house most of the time. He's getting depressed about it now.
Then 2 weeks ago my sister who is my "safe Person" and my support through my illness had a heart attack!!!:ohmy: She is home now and on the mend but obviously is relying on me rather than the other way round. Also my elderly mother (who has memory problems but lives on her own) relies on both of us for quite a bit of help with various things in her life. We shared this responsibility but now I feel it is all on me as my sister can't do too much just now and doesn't need the stress.
I am so stressed with it all but can't tell any of them and have just got to get on with it. I have been having pains in my chest too. Probably just stress and health anxiety after my sisters heart attack. I'm getting an ECG tomorrow just to check it out.
So sorry this is so long. I think I needed to get it all out and have no one to tell it to, so as always, hoped the wonderful people on here will give me a bit of support just now.
Thank you for reading.
Love Judy.x
I know what has started this off again but don't know how to deal with it. My hubbie has a really bad knee problem which means he can hardly walk most of the time. This has gone on for 8 weeks now and doctors are SO slow in getting him referred to a specialist. I have had to do everything for him. Basically turned into his nurse. He hates not working and being stuck in the house most of the time. He's getting depressed about it now.
Then 2 weeks ago my sister who is my "safe Person" and my support through my illness had a heart attack!!!:ohmy: She is home now and on the mend but obviously is relying on me rather than the other way round. Also my elderly mother (who has memory problems but lives on her own) relies on both of us for quite a bit of help with various things in her life. We shared this responsibility but now I feel it is all on me as my sister can't do too much just now and doesn't need the stress.
I am so stressed with it all but can't tell any of them and have just got to get on with it. I have been having pains in my chest too. Probably just stress and health anxiety after my sisters heart attack. I'm getting an ECG tomorrow just to check it out.
So sorry this is so long. I think I needed to get it all out and have no one to tell it to, so as always, hoped the wonderful people on here will give me a bit of support just now.
Thank you for reading.
Love Judy.x