dela
08-03-06, 10:44
Today I feel really stressed anxious and depressed. I just going to ramble here and say whatever comes into my head as I feel I need to offload a bit. Been carrying around a head full of stuff, no escape from the pounding, sleep is the only thing to escape then wake up to the rush first thing.Been looking on mood gym site and doing the exercises. It’s just faulty thinking.
Trying to breathe now just to find some way of relaxing. Think this is helping. Breathe. Waiting, waiting for it all to lift. So many things I’m worried about. Tend to just hang my anxiety on whaterver challenge comes up. Moving house. The car will pack up, how will I get to work, how will I pay the new mortgage. Why is this happening.
Breathe. Out for 11, in for 7. Slowly steadily.|Head feels swimming, brain feels scrambled, its just the symptoms… they cannot harm me. I am safe, perfectly safe. Breathe. Breathe. Perfectly safe. Don’t know the people here but they might understand. It’s just symptoms. Days roll in to weeks into months into years. Running out of time. Breathe. Breathe. Retrain my mind. Safe to come out of hiding. Want the world to go away. Too scary. Tooo scary. Feel a horrible sensation in my legs. Are they going to give out. Sitting here at my desk, pretending to be working. Doesn’t matter where \I am in the world, what I’m doing, no escape. Want to run and run and run. Run away. Hide forvever. Not made for this world. I hate it. Breathe, breathe and relax. It will not last forever.
Engage with life, gently, slowly one step at a time. Help. Breathe. Breathe. Relax muscles. Relax. People here won’t think me mad or crazy. Thank you.
Breathe and breathe again.
Afraid of using my potential. Difficult to generate enthusiasm, hold a conversation Feel flat and scared. Keep scaring myself. It’s just scary thoughts, that’s all. Good to be able to say all this and not have to carry around. People asking questions, I want to hide not to have to face people. They scare me. They cannot harm though. So I am safe, perfectly safe. Breathe breathe slowly and steadily. Even though heart flutters and chest feels tight I am safe. Don’t want this post to end….
Hope you all don’t mind. Thanks
Trying to breathe now just to find some way of relaxing. Think this is helping. Breathe. Waiting, waiting for it all to lift. So many things I’m worried about. Tend to just hang my anxiety on whaterver challenge comes up. Moving house. The car will pack up, how will I get to work, how will I pay the new mortgage. Why is this happening.
Breathe. Out for 11, in for 7. Slowly steadily.|Head feels swimming, brain feels scrambled, its just the symptoms… they cannot harm me. I am safe, perfectly safe. Breathe. Breathe. Perfectly safe. Don’t know the people here but they might understand. It’s just symptoms. Days roll in to weeks into months into years. Running out of time. Breathe. Breathe. Retrain my mind. Safe to come out of hiding. Want the world to go away. Too scary. Tooo scary. Feel a horrible sensation in my legs. Are they going to give out. Sitting here at my desk, pretending to be working. Doesn’t matter where \I am in the world, what I’m doing, no escape. Want to run and run and run. Run away. Hide forvever. Not made for this world. I hate it. Breathe, breathe and relax. It will not last forever.
Engage with life, gently, slowly one step at a time. Help. Breathe. Breathe. Relax muscles. Relax. People here won’t think me mad or crazy. Thank you.
Breathe and breathe again.
Afraid of using my potential. Difficult to generate enthusiasm, hold a conversation Feel flat and scared. Keep scaring myself. It’s just scary thoughts, that’s all. Good to be able to say all this and not have to carry around. People asking questions, I want to hide not to have to face people. They scare me. They cannot harm though. So I am safe, perfectly safe. Breathe breathe slowly and steadily. Even though heart flutters and chest feels tight I am safe. Don’t want this post to end….
Hope you all don’t mind. Thanks