Neverbeensoscared
08-10-10, 14:55
Right now in life, I am having to get used too a completely different style of life from what I have been living for the past two years....
I found out this week that my Nan has been in hospital for three nearly four weeks now, due to a fall she had at home caused by a water infection which had gone unnoticed. My Nan has always cared for her son, (my uncle) nick who suffers with brain damage and is special needs. I have not seen my Nan for two years nearly now, due to a fall out between my Mum, Nan and other uncle. Now we have got back in contact and found out my Nan has been diagnosed with dementia. She will never return from hospital and will go into a home shortly.
However, within the space of two days, it was decided that my uncle nick who has brain damage, would be coming to live with me and my Mum. I said I would help out and such but I know it's going to be hard getting into routine, as it is like looking after a child. I work two jobs, one which is working at a school with special needs children and another is being a waitress. I also study at college on Thursdays. My life is pretty full at the moment,
However the only thing making me feel extra anxious and on edge is the fact that me and my boyfriend of nearly three years broke up, due to how i am and due to the fact that the feelings were not there any more. He took this really good at first but i think he was more interested in getting back with me really soon, which I don't want. He has stopped speaking to me and we don't see each other at the moment, i understand he is hurt as i am too, but i just feel the way he said things to me and the way he has acted recently has been really hurtful, i thought he would understand better than what he has. I feel even though i am doing good in life for helping others even when i am feeling low, I still feel like a really bad person. :/
Bad times.
I hate anxiety worries. :(
I found out this week that my Nan has been in hospital for three nearly four weeks now, due to a fall she had at home caused by a water infection which had gone unnoticed. My Nan has always cared for her son, (my uncle) nick who suffers with brain damage and is special needs. I have not seen my Nan for two years nearly now, due to a fall out between my Mum, Nan and other uncle. Now we have got back in contact and found out my Nan has been diagnosed with dementia. She will never return from hospital and will go into a home shortly.
However, within the space of two days, it was decided that my uncle nick who has brain damage, would be coming to live with me and my Mum. I said I would help out and such but I know it's going to be hard getting into routine, as it is like looking after a child. I work two jobs, one which is working at a school with special needs children and another is being a waitress. I also study at college on Thursdays. My life is pretty full at the moment,
However the only thing making me feel extra anxious and on edge is the fact that me and my boyfriend of nearly three years broke up, due to how i am and due to the fact that the feelings were not there any more. He took this really good at first but i think he was more interested in getting back with me really soon, which I don't want. He has stopped speaking to me and we don't see each other at the moment, i understand he is hurt as i am too, but i just feel the way he said things to me and the way he has acted recently has been really hurtful, i thought he would understand better than what he has. I feel even though i am doing good in life for helping others even when i am feeling low, I still feel like a really bad person. :/
Bad times.
I hate anxiety worries. :(