madhatter
08-10-10, 16:13
Hi there! I'm a new user and have spent the last day or so reading the forums
In some ways I've found it a relief to see others who are experiencing some, all and in a few cases much more than what I have going around in my head.
As a bit of background, around a month ago, my g/f left me. She did this quite harshly, for reasons that she didnt want to be tied down and wanted to move out and do her own thing.
She was the best thing that happened to me in a long time, we'd just come back from holiday together and I thought we were in love. I loved her unconditionally. I couldnt and in some cases still cant accept that she's gone, but that as soon as we were over she'd practically moved in with someone else.
Anyway...it hit me hard that I'd lost her. She's all I ever think about and I couldnt really and still cant think of anything else other than being with her, and it took me a while to understand that being with her was what was keeping me happy.
When I realised I didnt have her in my life anymore, and she really didnt want me in hers, it made me look around at what I had left. I didnt really come up with much. Very few friends, a work from home job that is isolate and no family.
It sent me spiralling down, I started having anxiety attacks, couldnt eat, couldnt sleep, night sweats, panic, wanting to be at home and literally running out the door to get home from wherever I was at (175 miles away in one case!). I was also showing symptoms of depression, mixed in with OCD....I went to see a GP after a week. They prescribed some time as a healer with a 2 week stress sicknote
I went back a week later and discussed that I realised there was more to it than that, I have some issues to overcome in my personality and my life in general....no social life, few skills or opportunity to make new friends, the work from home job was killing me and I live in an area I hate. I couldnt see a way to change much of that. They gave me fluoxetine 20mg, which I took for 2 days, hated the zombie side effects and promptly left in the bathroom
Whats made me come here is the realisation that I probably need more help than chemicals, to understand why I have these feelings of not being able to deal with where I am or see a way back to "the good times". To learn from others who may have been there, understand what I'm feeling and could give advice on how to deal with situations.
But also, to just say hello :)
In some ways I've found it a relief to see others who are experiencing some, all and in a few cases much more than what I have going around in my head.
As a bit of background, around a month ago, my g/f left me. She did this quite harshly, for reasons that she didnt want to be tied down and wanted to move out and do her own thing.
She was the best thing that happened to me in a long time, we'd just come back from holiday together and I thought we were in love. I loved her unconditionally. I couldnt and in some cases still cant accept that she's gone, but that as soon as we were over she'd practically moved in with someone else.
Anyway...it hit me hard that I'd lost her. She's all I ever think about and I couldnt really and still cant think of anything else other than being with her, and it took me a while to understand that being with her was what was keeping me happy.
When I realised I didnt have her in my life anymore, and she really didnt want me in hers, it made me look around at what I had left. I didnt really come up with much. Very few friends, a work from home job that is isolate and no family.
It sent me spiralling down, I started having anxiety attacks, couldnt eat, couldnt sleep, night sweats, panic, wanting to be at home and literally running out the door to get home from wherever I was at (175 miles away in one case!). I was also showing symptoms of depression, mixed in with OCD....I went to see a GP after a week. They prescribed some time as a healer with a 2 week stress sicknote
I went back a week later and discussed that I realised there was more to it than that, I have some issues to overcome in my personality and my life in general....no social life, few skills or opportunity to make new friends, the work from home job was killing me and I live in an area I hate. I couldnt see a way to change much of that. They gave me fluoxetine 20mg, which I took for 2 days, hated the zombie side effects and promptly left in the bathroom
Whats made me come here is the realisation that I probably need more help than chemicals, to understand why I have these feelings of not being able to deal with where I am or see a way back to "the good times". To learn from others who may have been there, understand what I'm feeling and could give advice on how to deal with situations.
But also, to just say hello :)