Natural Mystic
11-10-10, 21:15
Hi, I'm Nicola and first posted in Sept 08 after I realised I was suffering from anxiety following a skin cancer diagnosis in December 07 (all clear now). I'd never suffered from anxiety or panics before that and I'm 42.
I had awful symptoms, at first just not knowing what the hell was happening to me. Most of the symptoms mentioned in these threads I suffered and I was convinced (like many of you) that I was dying of something. I am a single mother of a 9 year old (whose father isn't involved) and my biggest worry is leaving him alone.
So for months and months I suffered quite badly, including severe insomnia. Still I managed to get to work every day, and to be honest it kept me going. Being alone and in "quiet" seemed to make me worse. I even went to my doctors and told him/them that I was waiting for the voices.
I was worse at night, in the dark, when my son was asleep. "what if something happens now? what if I die now and my son has to find me" etc.et. (I'm sure many of you here know the score).
In March 09 I last posted here. I was busy and I guess I was "getting better". I learnt to accept (99% of the time) that it was anxiety and I decided not to fear it. Eventually the episodes got quite rare and from then until the past weeks I was "ME" again (aside from the odd twinge which I didn't fight and it left).
It's back so I'm back here with my fellow sufferers. This time, however, I will not allow it to render me lifeless. This time, however, I will not allow it to "freeze" me with fear. This time, however, I am NOT going to let it send me to the hell of fear.
I am not letting you get me anxiety. I am ignoring you, because you bore me "yawn"
:shades:
I had awful symptoms, at first just not knowing what the hell was happening to me. Most of the symptoms mentioned in these threads I suffered and I was convinced (like many of you) that I was dying of something. I am a single mother of a 9 year old (whose father isn't involved) and my biggest worry is leaving him alone.
So for months and months I suffered quite badly, including severe insomnia. Still I managed to get to work every day, and to be honest it kept me going. Being alone and in "quiet" seemed to make me worse. I even went to my doctors and told him/them that I was waiting for the voices.
I was worse at night, in the dark, when my son was asleep. "what if something happens now? what if I die now and my son has to find me" etc.et. (I'm sure many of you here know the score).
In March 09 I last posted here. I was busy and I guess I was "getting better". I learnt to accept (99% of the time) that it was anxiety and I decided not to fear it. Eventually the episodes got quite rare and from then until the past weeks I was "ME" again (aside from the odd twinge which I didn't fight and it left).
It's back so I'm back here with my fellow sufferers. This time, however, I will not allow it to render me lifeless. This time, however, I will not allow it to "freeze" me with fear. This time, however, I am NOT going to let it send me to the hell of fear.
I am not letting you get me anxiety. I am ignoring you, because you bore me "yawn"
:shades: