radougalkins
12-10-10, 00:06
I'm really sorry if this is the wrong place for this... Couldn't really figure out what this came under... But it's general so I thought here might be ok. Move it if you need to :)
I signed up a short while ago... But I sort of disappeared. Had a lot happening, my uncle almost died and it made me really stressed and my anxiety started playing up and now I just feel really really low. I wrote this about how I'm feeling.
I'm
Cant i just go to sleep and never wake up? Or at least
Sleep through this week.
I really can't cope with these thoughts and these tears.
Can't I just have one friend who is there? Or at least
Someone who cares.
I don't understand why I'm still alone after all these years..
Everyone else is fine without me
They have other friends to hang out with
To go places with.
I'm just the last resort, the one thought of last
Where is my best friend?
Why make everyone around me lead these great lives and have great times
When I just sit alone and so lonely.
It's like I don't matter to anyone.
I went to university hoping to make friends.
I made around two. They weren't even on my course.
Instead I watched everyone around me sitting in groups while I sat on the outside. My fault.
I went back to where i lived and it was like that there,
Didn't matter how hard I tried.
It just didn't happen.
All I want is to have friends, that's all.
To finally be someone.
Why cant I have friends who want to hang out with me?
Who ask me if I want to do something?
Why is everyone else asked but me...
Am I really that invisible..?
That is how I feel.
Though I also feel crushed,
Like I've been kicked in the stomach and broken apart.
I've lost everyone.
I go to gigs myself now,*
I miss out because noone can go
Or won't and don't want to
That's fine. I understand.
It just hurts. A lot more than I could ever put into words.
Nobody understands.
They don't.
I don't have anyone to turn to anymore. I thought maybe you could help me get through this. I find it hard to talk though but I had to do this. Can't keep feeling this way :(
I signed up a short while ago... But I sort of disappeared. Had a lot happening, my uncle almost died and it made me really stressed and my anxiety started playing up and now I just feel really really low. I wrote this about how I'm feeling.
I'm
Cant i just go to sleep and never wake up? Or at least
Sleep through this week.
I really can't cope with these thoughts and these tears.
Can't I just have one friend who is there? Or at least
Someone who cares.
I don't understand why I'm still alone after all these years..
Everyone else is fine without me
They have other friends to hang out with
To go places with.
I'm just the last resort, the one thought of last
Where is my best friend?
Why make everyone around me lead these great lives and have great times
When I just sit alone and so lonely.
It's like I don't matter to anyone.
I went to university hoping to make friends.
I made around two. They weren't even on my course.
Instead I watched everyone around me sitting in groups while I sat on the outside. My fault.
I went back to where i lived and it was like that there,
Didn't matter how hard I tried.
It just didn't happen.
All I want is to have friends, that's all.
To finally be someone.
Why cant I have friends who want to hang out with me?
Who ask me if I want to do something?
Why is everyone else asked but me...
Am I really that invisible..?
That is how I feel.
Though I also feel crushed,
Like I've been kicked in the stomach and broken apart.
I've lost everyone.
I go to gigs myself now,*
I miss out because noone can go
Or won't and don't want to
That's fine. I understand.
It just hurts. A lot more than I could ever put into words.
Nobody understands.
They don't.
I don't have anyone to turn to anymore. I thought maybe you could help me get through this. I find it hard to talk though but I had to do this. Can't keep feeling this way :(