stevesinelgin
12-10-10, 17:01
Since the age of 18 after a serious stress related breakdown in the winter of 1992, I have gone though numerous medication changes. My diagnosis has been mostly one of mixed anxiety/depression, although I had experienced symptoms in my mind that seem anything but anxiety.....more like dementia or some rare brain disease. It would appear that the medications get me well, but after a couple of years or so and a period of worry I start to lose my mind again. Then before I know it, I am back to square one yet again!
Physical symptoms like breathing difficulties, palpitations etc are bad enough. However it is the mental symptoms that really trouble me and just don't add up as anxiety. How can anxiety cause me to lose connection to my long term memory or make me feel as if family members and friends are strangers? What is it that is going on in my brain? I don't feel physically anxious but I am curious to know why it feels as if my brain is damaged. Also I feel as if I can no longer learn things and have forgotten skills which as you can imagine has me convinced of a more serious diagnosis than anxiety.
My latest setback started with symptoms of fuzzy headedness and a racing mind....i knew full well that this was anxiety and that it would pass. However, foolishly I started to 'google' symptoms and without realising was fuelling my cognitive symptoms to the point I was convinced that masturbating was causing tiny strokes in the memory part of my brain by the time of the 'blow off' point in July. Now a few months later I'm waiting for my mental health to recover and get on track again. I know that blood pressure worries are without foundation so the possibility of clots in my brain wiping memory after masturbating is extremely unlikely.
Physical symptoms like breathing difficulties, palpitations etc are bad enough. However it is the mental symptoms that really trouble me and just don't add up as anxiety. How can anxiety cause me to lose connection to my long term memory or make me feel as if family members and friends are strangers? What is it that is going on in my brain? I don't feel physically anxious but I am curious to know why it feels as if my brain is damaged. Also I feel as if I can no longer learn things and have forgotten skills which as you can imagine has me convinced of a more serious diagnosis than anxiety.
My latest setback started with symptoms of fuzzy headedness and a racing mind....i knew full well that this was anxiety and that it would pass. However, foolishly I started to 'google' symptoms and without realising was fuelling my cognitive symptoms to the point I was convinced that masturbating was causing tiny strokes in the memory part of my brain by the time of the 'blow off' point in July. Now a few months later I'm waiting for my mental health to recover and get on track again. I know that blood pressure worries are without foundation so the possibility of clots in my brain wiping memory after masturbating is extremely unlikely.