tonkaboy
13-10-10, 11:30
Hi everyone,
I've not been on here for a few years, it's funny but when things are on the up and up, you don't feel the need. Anyway, after recovering from my last bout of anx, which was brought on by overwork mainly, I've only gone and done it again!!
I've been off the ADs for nearly two years and everything was going swimmingly but since Easter, I've been leading a major effort at work and it's been under enormous pressure and timescales. Being the driven person I am, I hate to not achieve even when the timescales and workload are unrealistic. Ergo, I always give it 110%. Towards the end of August, the old feelings of being wound up like an over wound spring started to come back. No probs I thought, I can handle this, now where's the next job in the queue. Over the last couple of weeks, it's dawned on me that I'm in big trouble again and I sit here this morning off work after a very stressful and restless night. I didn't want to come away from work as you feel like a failure but this time around, I thought best to acknowledge defeat before I dig an even bigger hole for myself. To make it worse, my wife is expecting our second child in a month or so, so I feel like a complete bag of manure for having to own up to my situation. It's causing her major stress now.
I try to remind myself that I'm not a failure and the reason I get into this mess is because I care deeply about my family and my work - I love my work, it's exciting and demanding but it does come at a price sometimes. Right now, I'm wishing I'd accepted less performance and more peace of mind.
Anyway, just wanted to get it off my chest this morning. I see my GP tomorrow and see what he says. I suspect I'll be signed off for a fortnight. I'd like to avoid going back on the ADs if possible as the side effects really knock me for 6 for about a month. I understand what anxiety is and how it operates but that doesn't disarm it for me. I guess it's a matter of reducing stress levels, getting some rest and relaxation and being patient.
Cheers
Andy
I've not been on here for a few years, it's funny but when things are on the up and up, you don't feel the need. Anyway, after recovering from my last bout of anx, which was brought on by overwork mainly, I've only gone and done it again!!
I've been off the ADs for nearly two years and everything was going swimmingly but since Easter, I've been leading a major effort at work and it's been under enormous pressure and timescales. Being the driven person I am, I hate to not achieve even when the timescales and workload are unrealistic. Ergo, I always give it 110%. Towards the end of August, the old feelings of being wound up like an over wound spring started to come back. No probs I thought, I can handle this, now where's the next job in the queue. Over the last couple of weeks, it's dawned on me that I'm in big trouble again and I sit here this morning off work after a very stressful and restless night. I didn't want to come away from work as you feel like a failure but this time around, I thought best to acknowledge defeat before I dig an even bigger hole for myself. To make it worse, my wife is expecting our second child in a month or so, so I feel like a complete bag of manure for having to own up to my situation. It's causing her major stress now.
I try to remind myself that I'm not a failure and the reason I get into this mess is because I care deeply about my family and my work - I love my work, it's exciting and demanding but it does come at a price sometimes. Right now, I'm wishing I'd accepted less performance and more peace of mind.
Anyway, just wanted to get it off my chest this morning. I see my GP tomorrow and see what he says. I suspect I'll be signed off for a fortnight. I'd like to avoid going back on the ADs if possible as the side effects really knock me for 6 for about a month. I understand what anxiety is and how it operates but that doesn't disarm it for me. I guess it's a matter of reducing stress levels, getting some rest and relaxation and being patient.
Cheers
Andy