kerrie23
13-10-10, 14:23
Hi all, as some you may knoe i went on holiday tues 5th for 1 week on a 4 hour flight to tenerife.
This year i have had a couple of bad set backs and the few weeks before i went i could just about manage to go to the local town (only in the car though, iwouldnt get out!)
I was petrified about going but i was going with 10 others and my partner being one of them so i really didnt want to let any one down.
I was having panic attacks just at the thought of going, i was scared of being 'trapped' on a plane for 4 hours i was scared of being so far away from home knowing i would have to stay there a week and the only way home was by plane! I wasnt scared of the plane crashing just being trapped, and what if something wnt wrong and i passed out etc.??
The morning of the flight came and i was given 5mg dizepam by the dictors to take so i took one 15 mins before the flight, i dont think this was quick enough for them top kick in. i got on the plane ans asked the cabin crew if i could have a paper bag and i told her i was a nervous flyer and she was really great telling me that i would be fine if anything happened they are trained to deal with panicy people.
Any way i sat there started to shake thinking "I WANT TO GET OFF!!!" and i started crying. Then the plane stared to move and i seemed to calm down (the tablets kicked in) Im glad i had the tablets and dont see them as a bad thing in any way like i used to.
The week went by and although i felt anxious alot of the time i didnt have any major panic attacks. A few nights i woke in a sweat and shaking with a rapid heart beat but i told myself that it was fine these were only sensations and they were not going to hurt me as they would of done by now a long time ago. This helped and i put on my relaxation CD which sent me back off to sleep.
I thought i would be fine on the way back as i was coming home but i got very nervous so took another tablety and managed to dose most of the way home.
Given the choice i would def not of gone but with determination and the "sod it, im not going to let this win" thought, im soo glad i did, it wasnt the most relaxing holiday but a huge acheivment considering i wouldnt leave the house 3 years ago!!:yahoo:
I really hope this gives others hope just belive in your self. xx
This year i have had a couple of bad set backs and the few weeks before i went i could just about manage to go to the local town (only in the car though, iwouldnt get out!)
I was petrified about going but i was going with 10 others and my partner being one of them so i really didnt want to let any one down.
I was having panic attacks just at the thought of going, i was scared of being 'trapped' on a plane for 4 hours i was scared of being so far away from home knowing i would have to stay there a week and the only way home was by plane! I wasnt scared of the plane crashing just being trapped, and what if something wnt wrong and i passed out etc.??
The morning of the flight came and i was given 5mg dizepam by the dictors to take so i took one 15 mins before the flight, i dont think this was quick enough for them top kick in. i got on the plane ans asked the cabin crew if i could have a paper bag and i told her i was a nervous flyer and she was really great telling me that i would be fine if anything happened they are trained to deal with panicy people.
Any way i sat there started to shake thinking "I WANT TO GET OFF!!!" and i started crying. Then the plane stared to move and i seemed to calm down (the tablets kicked in) Im glad i had the tablets and dont see them as a bad thing in any way like i used to.
The week went by and although i felt anxious alot of the time i didnt have any major panic attacks. A few nights i woke in a sweat and shaking with a rapid heart beat but i told myself that it was fine these were only sensations and they were not going to hurt me as they would of done by now a long time ago. This helped and i put on my relaxation CD which sent me back off to sleep.
I thought i would be fine on the way back as i was coming home but i got very nervous so took another tablety and managed to dose most of the way home.
Given the choice i would def not of gone but with determination and the "sod it, im not going to let this win" thought, im soo glad i did, it wasnt the most relaxing holiday but a huge acheivment considering i wouldnt leave the house 3 years ago!!:yahoo:
I really hope this gives others hope just belive in your self. xx