empop92
13-10-10, 14:30
I feel like crap every day and this has been going on for too long and I just need some help. At the age of 12 i witnessed my mum have a horrible accident, luckily she was ok but since then i suffered for 2 years from panic attacks and since overcoming them i have suffered from anxiety attacks and OCD for 3 years. I'm now almost 18 and I hate how I am.. i had a wonderful childhood and was so happy.. now i feel constantly anxious and depressed.
the biggest worry I have is about my sexuality.. all my life I have liked boys and currently have a boyfriend who I have been with for 2 years. He is like my best friend - i can tell him anything and love being around him.. I also have a strong sexual attraction to him but STILL in the back of my mind i'm like 'do i fancy this other girl??' i can't eat or sleep its so bad :(
i used to be friends with this girl but we drifted apart.. i wasn't too bothered about it tbh. but whenever i'm around her i get major anxiety attacks and i'm like 'do i find her attractvie?' i analyse every feeling and she always pops into my mind and i get this weird feeling which then makes me worry if it's romantic feelings or not.
i don't even know what romantic feelings are anymore.. i don't feel happy when i'm around her and i've seen her getting with guys before and not felt jealous or anything (but get jealous of my current boyfriend)
i can't describe this feelings except it's not exactly unpleasant, which freaks me out cus i'm like 'does this mean i like her?'
its like a surge through my body and its weird :S
when i kiss my bf it feels amazing and passionate.. surely this is having romantic feelings for someone?
whenever she sits near me i just want her to go away i feel so uncomfortable :(
what is this? how do i stop these obsessive thoughts and weird feelings?
please someone help me
the biggest worry I have is about my sexuality.. all my life I have liked boys and currently have a boyfriend who I have been with for 2 years. He is like my best friend - i can tell him anything and love being around him.. I also have a strong sexual attraction to him but STILL in the back of my mind i'm like 'do i fancy this other girl??' i can't eat or sleep its so bad :(
i used to be friends with this girl but we drifted apart.. i wasn't too bothered about it tbh. but whenever i'm around her i get major anxiety attacks and i'm like 'do i find her attractvie?' i analyse every feeling and she always pops into my mind and i get this weird feeling which then makes me worry if it's romantic feelings or not.
i don't even know what romantic feelings are anymore.. i don't feel happy when i'm around her and i've seen her getting with guys before and not felt jealous or anything (but get jealous of my current boyfriend)
i can't describe this feelings except it's not exactly unpleasant, which freaks me out cus i'm like 'does this mean i like her?'
its like a surge through my body and its weird :S
when i kiss my bf it feels amazing and passionate.. surely this is having romantic feelings for someone?
whenever she sits near me i just want her to go away i feel so uncomfortable :(
what is this? how do i stop these obsessive thoughts and weird feelings?
please someone help me