steve2009
15-10-10, 15:18
It's a while since I posted anything so here goes.
In January after a four month period with symtoms of anxiety and low mood I forced myself back into work. My ADs were giving a reasonable nights sleep, so I felt I would just have to face everyone and everything and face the fear. Earning a wage and supporting my family was a great way of regaining some self esteem.
This time last year I was a physical and mental shipwreck on life's ocean.
I felt a failure, hated myself and my circumstances.
A year on, I coming off ADs and I'm working as much as ever, and lucky enough to have a job, though I feel that I am making some of that luck with determination.
We have been able to have two nice cheap holidays at Easter and August, making the best of the time.
It is far from an easy journey but if I look back a year I can use my present state as a reference to that time......and say that I am truely functioning again. Still mightily difficult though!
I have many faults but I'm proud that I have fought this thing.
Fought for me and my family.
Proud to have got very fit and kept up my running regime.
Proud to have got working again.
Proud to have faced the fear.
I feel like this is turning into a speech!......
Like Churchill said........
We will NEVER surrender....:)
However small or successes we should try to reinforce them.
What are the things you are proud of. Write them down and give yourself a pat on the back.
Cheers
In January after a four month period with symtoms of anxiety and low mood I forced myself back into work. My ADs were giving a reasonable nights sleep, so I felt I would just have to face everyone and everything and face the fear. Earning a wage and supporting my family was a great way of regaining some self esteem.
This time last year I was a physical and mental shipwreck on life's ocean.
I felt a failure, hated myself and my circumstances.
A year on, I coming off ADs and I'm working as much as ever, and lucky enough to have a job, though I feel that I am making some of that luck with determination.
We have been able to have two nice cheap holidays at Easter and August, making the best of the time.
It is far from an easy journey but if I look back a year I can use my present state as a reference to that time......and say that I am truely functioning again. Still mightily difficult though!
I have many faults but I'm proud that I have fought this thing.
Fought for me and my family.
Proud to have got very fit and kept up my running regime.
Proud to have got working again.
Proud to have faced the fear.
I feel like this is turning into a speech!......
Like Churchill said........
We will NEVER surrender....:)
However small or successes we should try to reinforce them.
What are the things you are proud of. Write them down and give yourself a pat on the back.
Cheers