Rennie1989
18-10-10, 20:24
hiya
i couldn't find anywhere to put this thread so sorry if it is in the wrong place.
in my thread in the 'introduce yourself' forum i explained how i felt really high (being provocative, spending money on alcohol and taxis, speaking before i think and loud) and how i suddenly crashed into depression. i have been depressed now for nearly two weeks and it couldn't happen at any better time, essays are due in a matter of days and i cant concentrate to get them done!!!
now, i think i could be bipolar, and i have found that hard to admit. the highs i experienced were not who i was, i never grab my friends breasts or talk about sex so openly, that's not who i am, but i did! i got drunk so many times at clubs, almost having a one night stand with a guy i never met, and being so drunk that dancing kept me standing. i have looked back at my photos on facebook and i am discusted with how i behaved, no dignity what so ever! my friends loved it though. and i remember times where i have been on a high like that, two years ago i remember going around my old work place telling my colleaguses that i was 'adorable', i have never had that high self esteem before, and both those times i have always crashed into depression afterwards, after the first time i tried to commit suicide, which my doctor knows.
i dont know how to tell my doctor, im scared that he'll tell me nothings wrong when im sure there is. who else goes on a high, and crashes into depression with no triggers what so ever. has anybody else had to go to the doctors thinking they were bipolar? what did you say? what did the doctors do?
i couldn't find anywhere to put this thread so sorry if it is in the wrong place.
in my thread in the 'introduce yourself' forum i explained how i felt really high (being provocative, spending money on alcohol and taxis, speaking before i think and loud) and how i suddenly crashed into depression. i have been depressed now for nearly two weeks and it couldn't happen at any better time, essays are due in a matter of days and i cant concentrate to get them done!!!
now, i think i could be bipolar, and i have found that hard to admit. the highs i experienced were not who i was, i never grab my friends breasts or talk about sex so openly, that's not who i am, but i did! i got drunk so many times at clubs, almost having a one night stand with a guy i never met, and being so drunk that dancing kept me standing. i have looked back at my photos on facebook and i am discusted with how i behaved, no dignity what so ever! my friends loved it though. and i remember times where i have been on a high like that, two years ago i remember going around my old work place telling my colleaguses that i was 'adorable', i have never had that high self esteem before, and both those times i have always crashed into depression afterwards, after the first time i tried to commit suicide, which my doctor knows.
i dont know how to tell my doctor, im scared that he'll tell me nothings wrong when im sure there is. who else goes on a high, and crashes into depression with no triggers what so ever. has anybody else had to go to the doctors thinking they were bipolar? what did you say? what did the doctors do?