NatteAsbak
18-10-10, 20:29
Hi guys.:)
It's been a while since I last posted here. The past year has been bearable, with a few ups and a few downs. My DR has been consistent, but less so than last year. I quit my medication about 2 months ago (citalopram), cause' I felt confident enough that I could handle my anxiety 'naturally'. I was wrong. My OCD got really bad, so did my social fear (big, open spaces or small, really crowded ones especially). Now I'm back on the pills and this time, I'm afraid it's for good.
For the past two weeks, I've had this fear of my heart stopping; i.e getting a blood clut. I feel a tingling in my arms and legs occasionally, and though my heart doesen't beat particularly hard, I feel that it's about to pop right out of my chest or burst - it's hard to explain, but it sort of feels like my heart is struggling... like I can feel my heart beating inside me. Does this make any sense? Also, I feel occasional rushes of blood to the head at random moments and dizziness. My dad died from a blood clut when he was 54, so I guess that's where it all comes from. I just needed to know if these 'symptoms' and fears is something someone else has felt, so it's not anything to be worried about? Hope so.
Thanks all for your long lasting support. I wish I could say that
it feels good to be back, but you know... :unsure:
all the best,
Jarl.
It's been a while since I last posted here. The past year has been bearable, with a few ups and a few downs. My DR has been consistent, but less so than last year. I quit my medication about 2 months ago (citalopram), cause' I felt confident enough that I could handle my anxiety 'naturally'. I was wrong. My OCD got really bad, so did my social fear (big, open spaces or small, really crowded ones especially). Now I'm back on the pills and this time, I'm afraid it's for good.
For the past two weeks, I've had this fear of my heart stopping; i.e getting a blood clut. I feel a tingling in my arms and legs occasionally, and though my heart doesen't beat particularly hard, I feel that it's about to pop right out of my chest or burst - it's hard to explain, but it sort of feels like my heart is struggling... like I can feel my heart beating inside me. Does this make any sense? Also, I feel occasional rushes of blood to the head at random moments and dizziness. My dad died from a blood clut when he was 54, so I guess that's where it all comes from. I just needed to know if these 'symptoms' and fears is something someone else has felt, so it's not anything to be worried about? Hope so.
Thanks all for your long lasting support. I wish I could say that
it feels good to be back, but you know... :unsure:
all the best,
Jarl.