NumbForest
19-10-10, 05:34
Hi all,
Not sure this belongs here but not sure where else to put it.
I have started to have episodes where I suddenly realise where I am and what I am doing. Not like I didn't already know, but it all suddenly becomes real and tbh it is scaring the hell out of me.
The other day, I was driving back to my old town, my friend was giving me a lift, I was sitting there chatting to her when, suddenly I realised I was in a car. I knew before that, that I was in a car. Yet somehow it became more real. I felt totally trapped. I felt boxed in and scared.
I have suffered with anxiety and depression for years. Yet nothing like this has ever happened. It feels like much of the time I am going through life in a kind of dream. Then I only realise this when it all becomes real and I freak out.
Tonight, I was sat with a friend, just laughing (not something my anxiety allows to happen too often) when all of a sudden, I realise I was living in this house, I was at uni and it was all sooo real. I found myself looking round to see if I could recognise everything, which I clearly could because I already knew where I was. It was just more real.
I feel so lost. I feel like I am blocking everything out and I have no idea where to start.
Not sure this belongs here but not sure where else to put it.
I have started to have episodes where I suddenly realise where I am and what I am doing. Not like I didn't already know, but it all suddenly becomes real and tbh it is scaring the hell out of me.
The other day, I was driving back to my old town, my friend was giving me a lift, I was sitting there chatting to her when, suddenly I realised I was in a car. I knew before that, that I was in a car. Yet somehow it became more real. I felt totally trapped. I felt boxed in and scared.
I have suffered with anxiety and depression for years. Yet nothing like this has ever happened. It feels like much of the time I am going through life in a kind of dream. Then I only realise this when it all becomes real and I freak out.
Tonight, I was sat with a friend, just laughing (not something my anxiety allows to happen too often) when all of a sudden, I realise I was living in this house, I was at uni and it was all sooo real. I found myself looking round to see if I could recognise everything, which I clearly could because I already knew where I was. It was just more real.
I feel so lost. I feel like I am blocking everything out and I have no idea where to start.