carli
19-10-10, 20:34
Hello everyone, i am writing this post as i feel i might be abole to bring some comfort to some of you. In dec 2009 i started to get my first "ms symptoms" numbness, tingling, pins and needles, burning patches, frezzing patches, eye issues...etc.....i have seen 4 neros (1 privately), 8 eye specialist (2 privately) and been 2 the drs countless times had thousands of blood test, examinations, mri of neck and brain, v.e.p, etc...
Today i still get the odd numbness, aches, pins and needles, tingles, eye issues, and bad days but none of these are as bad as when i was first gripped by the fear!! If i get the numb sensations wheather its on my face in my arms or legs i get up and get active to take my mind of it by doing some house work, going for a walk.....anything to stop me obsessing about it as thats what it becomes an obsession. My every waking second was comsumed by what sensations i was feeling and i would hold on to them for dear life!!!
I would like you to not be like that, its awful and i shudder when i look back as i was really bad and anxious and depressed by it. I have to decided to write this as i see loads of posts on it but never any saying how they feel a year on regarding the ms fear so i thoguht i would write and try and put some other people minds at rest. I realise that when the fear has gripped you there is little anyone can say or do to reassure you but when u need a little comfort i hope you can find it in this post.
As i said earlier, i still get my bad days and im sure i always will but i cope with them now, im enrolled in a course and am starting volunteering to be a family support worker in a children an familys centre so i can gain some expericance and qualifications that will lead me to a job there.......something i never thoguht would be possible since i developed my fear of ms.
Im always here if anyone would like to chat and you can always p.m me. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Today i still get the odd numbness, aches, pins and needles, tingles, eye issues, and bad days but none of these are as bad as when i was first gripped by the fear!! If i get the numb sensations wheather its on my face in my arms or legs i get up and get active to take my mind of it by doing some house work, going for a walk.....anything to stop me obsessing about it as thats what it becomes an obsession. My every waking second was comsumed by what sensations i was feeling and i would hold on to them for dear life!!!
I would like you to not be like that, its awful and i shudder when i look back as i was really bad and anxious and depressed by it. I have to decided to write this as i see loads of posts on it but never any saying how they feel a year on regarding the ms fear so i thoguht i would write and try and put some other people minds at rest. I realise that when the fear has gripped you there is little anyone can say or do to reassure you but when u need a little comfort i hope you can find it in this post.
As i said earlier, i still get my bad days and im sure i always will but i cope with them now, im enrolled in a course and am starting volunteering to be a family support worker in a children an familys centre so i can gain some expericance and qualifications that will lead me to a job there.......something i never thoguht would be possible since i developed my fear of ms.
Im always here if anyone would like to chat and you can always p.m me. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx